There is

[Starrlight]

too much to fix

Got out of the house

Triggered and had a good contemplation

I realize I’ve always hated myself

Too much to fix

[Roxylox]

You've got your kids you love your kids Starr I was where you were. My husband said if l did anything desperate My kids would end up doing the same. It was one of the things thst pulled me up sharp!

Too much sunshine and poetry, love of nature and hope- giving to others in you to give up.

Think on. If you give up there will be a lot more to fix

[Starrlight in reply to Roxylox]

I’m not going to kill myself or anything . Thanks for checking on me.

[Roxylox in reply to Starrlight]

Sorry for misunderstanding.I really sympathise, as you seem to have an overwhelming amount of work and responsibility.

I think maybe you need help witb your duties snd some time out, and l know well that's easier said than done.

[Starrlight in reply to Roxylox]

Oh no problem I’m mean it’s hard to understand because I’m so close to wanting out and you were sensing that it’s just that I couldn’t go through with it if part of me wanted to. Thank you so much for being here, for listening, you’re a good friend.

[Roxylox in reply to Starrlight]

I'm maybe a bit too blunt and direct though.I know what it is to have a big workload

Not as big as yours though

I think there is only so much one person can handle comfortably

Again, thanks for your lovely posts that encourage many of us so much

[melbrown]

(((Starrlight))) 💗💗💗 I hope you realize how much you are love. As someone who often feels like what you posted... you are wonderful the way you are.

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

I love you!

[melbrown in reply to Starrlight]

Love you too❣

[Nothing_but_books]

Hey Starr. I have some pretty bad voices from my past that do not go gentle. It's hard, it's so hard to get past them. Your wonderful gratitude posts have helped me so many times to try, maybe not succeed, but at least try to find some. I've missed you.

[Imaaan in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Hey stranger

Havent seen you around lately so it's good to see ya.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Imaaan]

Hey back!

[Starrlight in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I’m just about to do a grateful post !!!!!!

[Hope4me1]

I struggle with the same feelings. Hugs coming your way—❤️😊

[Starrlight in reply to Hope4me1]

Hugs backatchya

[Dolphin14]

⭐️

It's amazing how we can not always see our positive traits.

You have many and people here see them.

Shine your light ⭐️. We all have a light inside us.

Namaste

❤️🐬

Clean your slate for Wed and know you are special in the eyes of many

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

Omg I just saw this! Beautiful, beautiful lady Namaste

[KindredKate]

I have been there. Still go there for short " stints". No longer stuck there.Keep working hard to get the " poisoned" thoughts out. Over time, you may find at least ONE redeeming quality about yourself.

That one thing helped me climb out of the pity pot, one limb at a time.

You CAN do it. We are here to " listen" with out eyes, when you need us.

Much love. It is worth the effort, and so, you will find, are YOU!❤

[Starrlight in reply to KindredKate]

So helpful !!!!!!! Thank you soooooo much!

[Mrspjsmom]

With low self esteem It's impossible to like or love ourselves. Sometimes we can't even see the good within us. Even worse we think everyone else sees us the way we see ourselves. Hang on Starrlight. I am here and understand. I see goodness in you.

[Starrlight in reply to Mrspjsmom]

I see goodness in you too amazing lady!

[Hidden]

Hi Starrlight, how are you doing now? I won’t give up if you don’t give up. Give yourself some breathing room, we all need time for ourselves. Can’t give from an empty cup. Maybe take a nice bubble bath and just soak in the tub, tell your kids this is Mom’s time where she needs to be left alone.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Just came back from hiking hurt my knee a tiny bit. Will go hiking again later but take it easy. It’s my savior! Maybe I will take a bubble bath - can you believe I haven’t done that in years?! Ridiculous right.?! I always want a shower. Lol

[Imaaan]

You may feel blinded by those negative internal voices but dont let the critic within win. The truth of the matters is that they dont have any legs to stand on because we see your amazing qualities and I pray that a day comes where you see it as well. Love on yourself and speak words of affirmation and starve those negative thoughts.

This week I was researching N A C for the lining of my stomach and lo and behold discovered that it could possibly help bipolar and schizophrenia. Since you are in the process of reducing meds, I thought to mention it to you. Wishing you a blessed day.

psychscenehub.com/video/nac...

[mauv]

Starlight when you can’t think of any positive attributes of yourself ask your friends, and believe what they say. Write them on a card or hav them put it on paper and put it in an envelope and carry it with me. When you believe the truth you will start liking yourself. Attribute 1. You are loved and you are lovable. 2.You are the best mom to your kids. Someone else add to this list. Let’s show Starrlight how we see her!