Depressed?

[oldtimer159]

Trigger Warning!!

I don't feel like doing anything anymore. Before I felt like screaming, crying. But not I'm just indifferent. There are so many times I just can't move my body.

Its just emptiness and it hurts.. The empty vortex inside me.. Starting from my throat to my stomach.. Makes it so difficult to breathe .. Feels heavy.. Dragging me down with gravity.. My eyes refuse to tear up anymore and I am just nothing in this world.. Wish this would go away but honestly, it's starting to feel like it's here to stay and I'll be like this forever.. Maybe talking to my friends would help but I almost never get back what I give to people.. Not their fault either.. They are who they are.. A product of their biology and surroundings.. I feel betrayed.. Its not their fault but its just another pain on top of another.. And its not really anyone else.. Probably not even me.. But I'm here and I suffer.

I don't wish this pain to go away.. But can't I atleast get a breather or some comfort with me while I fight? I will fight but I'm tired of being alone.. I can't comfort myself anymore.. I've become indifferent to myself and its not my fault either.. Hey it is what it is right? I was born with a particular biology, my surrounding and with some rotten luck!!

Not angry while typing this.. Just tired and hopeless.. This is depression right? Or I'm just delusional. I don't know anymore. Maybe I'm just pitying myself.

[Roxylox]

Not sure if it's depression, perhaps it's just frustration at being misunderstood , unheard and perhaps unappreciated.I can relate.

[samack]

I am struggling much the same way you are. There is a dynamic we play in when giving more than we get. Meds may help you greatly to get relief.. When they work for me, I feel less weighed down. Best to you.

[AdamFCastillo31]

Depression is one of the most discussed mental illnesses in present times. Most people struggle to distinguish depression from laziness because they are closely interrelated ezcareclinic.com/laziness-o.... Your signs are closely related to depression, but it is very important to distinguish them from laziness for this you need medical professional help as soon as possible.loss of interest in everyday activities

Difficulty concentrating

Change in sleep pattern

Weight gain or loss

Increased fatigue ETC. These are all clear signs of depression.

You are looking for emotional help from your friends, it may help you to overcome it, but you need counseling treatment methods to get rid of depression. Otherwise, it will affect your mental health.

Please have a look at this ezcareclinic.com/depression... I am sure it will work for you too.

Best of luck.

[cbgrace1980]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. It does sound like you are struggling with some depression. Have you thought about talking with a counselor? This has helped me tremendously in my life. I think it would be good to consider trying that out. I hope that you feel peace very soon.