I feel misunderstood

[xjeh2830x]

I want a change. Sometimes I wish I could run away and change my whole identity. I don't want to have this life anymore. I'm insecure , lonely, hated, and misunderstood in every aspect. Why do I always give my all to people and never receive it back? Why do people treat me so poorly? Why do I keep getting hurt? Aren't you suppose to feel the most love from your family? Why is it that I find myself wanting nothing to do with my family? So many questions with no answers. I find myself waking up every morning and dreading that I have to go through the same routine everyday. I just want to be happy, I want to be loved. I want to know how life would be like without depression. Sadly, that doesn't seem like an option I have. Life sucks ugh.

[Roxylox]

Life can suck yeah. My family care about me but l feel they don't think l am a person of much worth. One sibling in particular doesn't have a clue what I'm about.

Other people are my main problem though. The way I am wrongly judged. Shunned and despised is beyond my belief.

I have found solace in online group support meetings on Zoom since Covid.