I'm lonely, boring and ugly it's not a good compilation. Been like this my whole life, I was 7 when I tried to hang myself with my baby blanket.
I can keep busy enough to not be depressed, but it's the down time that kills me.
I don't have friends, legitamittly can't talk to my family about mental problems. Everytime I reach out for help my hand is pushed away.
Things never get better, they just get forgotten about for a while.
I have social anxiety really bad, which makes it hard to do anything. My job closed down 3 weeks ago. The one friend I had died in March. Now I have downtime to work on myself, and I honestly don't like myself.
This is hard and it's harder to find help