Need to chat

[Laniben]

I was doing great but for during September my anxiety started up again quite badly, I’ve had the fearful days, the tearful ones, the ok ones. But This morning I don’t feel too good at all, hardly had any sleep, whereas I’ve been doing ok. Had anxiety dream about it as well and. Ow it’s left me feeling tearful, I also get anxiety gagging, which I did over 2 years ago. This morning I feel lost after a fairly good day yesterday doing my best to go to the shops with my older granddaughter. I feel listless, my shoulders feel like jelly, and I got that scared feeling in the night because I couldn’t sleep. I’ve had all this before yet it has still bothered me. I live on my own, I have family but they can’t be here here 24/7 I know that. I just needed to talk

Sam x

[Kkimm]

HiSo sorry to hear that. We used to write alot to each other two years ago you may remember.

I am still doing great but can get the symptoms back a little every now and then. I have stayed on my antidepressants and will not risk coming off them as I feel really good on them.

You have done so well to be free of anxiety for two years. Do you think there has been a trigger for the return of it? Sometimes I find tiredness alone can bring it back a little. Mine has never stayed long when it has returned once I get back to a good pattern of exercise, eating and sleeping routine.

I think yours may not last too long either.

My very best wishes.

Kim

[Laniben in reply to Kkimm]

Hello Kkimm yes of course I remember you. I was ill beginning of September which drained me and then it triggered it off. I’ve just rang the doctor to ask if they can up my tablets a little for the moment but it’s a nightmare trying to talk to anyone properly these days. My doctor gave me circadian for sleeping issues which helped last time and I still have an unopened pack here which is still in date. The earliest I can talk to a doctor is Friday. I had a good day yesterday but I was getting agitated around tea time as I like to have my ‘me time’ upstairs listening to music or meditations. Then the brief sleep I did have was an anxiety dream about not sleeping and that hasnt helped. Hence today I feel weak tired and uptight and emotional. Sam Thanks for replying Kkimm x

[Kkimm in reply to Laniben]

Hi SamSorry to hear that, if you largely had a good day yesterday that is progress.

Do tell me how your big holiday to Florida with grandchildren went, I often wondered.

All the best.

Kim

[Laniben in reply to Kkimm]

It was great. No problems at all, From the start to the finish. The Best thing I did. That was October 2019, seems so long ago now. And now all this. I took a circadian last night had them before and they were fine, but for some reason I feel dreadful this morning, dizzy, heavy and totally out of sync, I took them early enough as well. I was trembling too. I had to go back to bed. I hate it when there’s no one here as I tend to panic and I feel guilty for doing it. My eldest daughter will pop in later as she was out when I rang her. I wish I knew why I get so uptight with it still. Now I’ve just put the tv on but it doesnt help much right now.

xx Sam

[Kkimm in reply to Laniben]

Hi Sam.I find that it is nearly always mornings which are the worst time. You are very likely to feel much better as the day goes on. There is a biological reason for this, we get a spurt of cortisol which is an anxiety hormone into our system shortly after we wake up. This was to make primitive man be alert to any dangers around as soon as he awoke such as the bear likely to attack him etc. I even feel quite bad most mornings still but let myself get up gradually and do pleasant relaxing things for an hour in bed before I get up. I also have a breakfast as a series of little healthy meals such as yoghurt and cereal then nuts and fruit with lots of cups of weak tea which I really like.

I then make sure I do something nice once I am up such as go for a long walk or a shopping trip followed by a nice long light lunch.

Good luck, hope you feel better soon.

Kim

[gerrerd]

What self help do you do, ie progs, books, etc

[gerrerd]

I could give you info on were you can get loads of self help stuf, if you like x

[Laniben in reply to gerrerd]

Thank you that would help. I do meditation when I can.

[gerrerd in reply to Laniben]

I use self hypnosis it worked for me, started using them in 1982 so they are safe and very effective if you go to potentials unlimited online get the relaxation one, see how it goes just follow the instructions, I also use meny other methods including meditation ! but try the relaxation one first. let me know how it goes ! I know loads of other progs you could try x

[Laniben]

I listen to Dr Wayne dyer as well, have done on and off for a while.

[gerrerd in reply to Laniben]

My guru, his progs saved my life, started to listen to Wayne in 1990 ! I have most of his programs, when I was in depression they pulled me out of it, I think im turning into him now, x

[Laniben]

Thank you Gerrerd