Situational Update

[Dragon3695]

I haven't posted or checked in on the site for awhile. I have been going through a lot of growth and changes lately. I had two job interviews for the first time in over ten years today thanks to my therapist and the program he got me into. I'm just one yes away from having my own place and as well as a job that pays somewhere in the twenty dollar an hour range. Things are looking up for me in most areas of my life. I am still struggling with issues with my emotions as well as my feelings for my current roommate however. I love her and want to be with her but since she doesn't share those feelings I get jealous when she has guys over. I know I can not control it and I know it frustrates her that I can not control my emotions but it hurts so badly that it cuts like a deep knife knowing she is in another room having sex with a friend. I just want her to be happy but I hate how much it hurts me and I am having a really hard time getting past my feelings for her so I can try to be happy as well. Right now all my hopes are that distance either helps me get past my feelings or she starts to realize she does have feelings for me and things change. Two things I am sure of is only time will tell and it is all out of my hands at this current moment.

[Narwhal10]

Hi Dragon,

Well congratulations on your job interviews. That’s wonderful. And nearly getting your own place. Plus to hear about growth and change. That’s quite a bit going on really.

Do you ever write down your feelings about your roommate. They are your feelings which are valid and are acceptable. It’s okay to feel what you feel and no-one can take that away from you or should try and change that. You are attracted to her and it’s normal for someone to wish that the feeling were mutual. You are correct time and situations do change, so it’s being patient and seeing what unfolds.

Best wishes

🐳

[Agora1]

Hi Dragon, it has been some time since you've been on but I'm happy to hear about yourjob interviews and in working in getting your life together.

As for your attraction to your room mate, as much as that hurts deeply that it isn't what

you want, I'm glad that you are making the best of it right now.

Like you said, it may not always be as it is now. Feelings change over time, maybe even

your own. My best to you on your job interviews. Keep in touch. xx