It's so painful

[KindSoul02]

I feel like no one understands. I feel like I'm going crazy. How do you cope with GAD, PTSD and Depression. Especially when everything it hits all at once. I can't seem to shake it. I cry constantly. I feel like I'm screaming for help and I'm not being heard.

[KindSoul02]

Thank you. I really appreciate it. I try deep breathing and I feel like I can't breathe. I've tried meditation, I can't sit still. Im so fidgety and it's hard to sit still. I write I'm journal and draw but even them I feel like it's hard to focus. This morning I knew it was getting really bad, I couldn't form any words, my texts were coming out like gibberish and I'd forget midsentence what I was talking about. My mind never stops and I just want one good night's sleep. But the last 3 weeks I don't sleep but maybe 3 hrs

[Midori]

Hi V,

I think you have got yourself into a feedback loop, and you seem to be panicking, and one thing feeds on the next until you cannot help yourself.

I think it best that you see your doctor.

Cheers, Midori

[KindSoul02 in reply to Midori]

A feedback loop? I've never heard of that. Yesterday was a horrible day. I felt like everything just wouldn't stop. I called my therapist and she sent crisis team to my place. They talked to me about and hour. I did manage to get an appt with psych tomorrow to do some med changes if needed or a whole new game plan

[Midori in reply to KindSoul02]

A feedback loop is what happens when one thing follows another and then repeats. If you are into computers you could call it a logic loop. The result is that you get anxious, then you worry about being anxious, which makes you more anxious,which makes you more worried, and so on. it feeds on itself.

Cheers, Midori

[HisDaughter]

I am very sorry! I've had problems with depression all my adult life and I've had some of your experiences and thoughts and I know that your life is not easy. The doctors who would give me medications always told me to get therapy too and I know that therapy can help a lot. But many times I've also felt that no one understands. And I've had problems sleeping for 10 years already, but, thankfully, I've been taking an antidepressant that helps me sleep every night. It is important to have a therapist or a counselor. I am very sorry that it is very difficult for you to do things! One thing that many doctors have said helps a lot is going to walk outside every day. Of course, it is not easy to do it when you're suffering a lot! But it is important to do our best. I hope that you are able to find a counselor or a therapist that helps you a lot and guides you and listens to you. I'm very sorry that you suffer so much! God bless you!

[KindSoul02 in reply to HisDaughter]

Thank you. I appreciate your comment. I have two therapist have since 2014 and a psych. Ifeellikethey listen and help me through things because they have too. Things are just really bad right now and some d as I wonder which way is up. The one person that was supposed to be there for support and care love me left because " you're a disaster, you're mind is all messed up." So now I question everything.

[HisDaughter]

Oh my goodness! I am so sorry that that person left you! This life is filled with a lot of suffering! I am very glad you've had therapists and I would like to tell you that many people love what they do. There are some therapists who have a big desire to help others and they care a lot about others. I hope that you start feeling a lot better soon. You can always ask God for help. You can always ask God to give you strength. I wish all your pain would stop. You have problems in your health. Some people have physical health problems, some people have mental health problems. You are not a disaster! You are precious and valuable and very important! May God bless you a lot!