I'm living somewhere I will never be able to reach a stable level of happiness. This is for many reasons that cannot be washed away by ignoring it - it's a childhood of trauma that I'm reminded of in every wall, every door, every step. I cannot leave yet because I have not found my strength again, but I cannot find my strength while I am here.
Does anyone have a phrase or a mantra that helps them when they feel trapped?
I am sorry that you feel this mentally physically all over every day.The constant feeling of fight flight is real and takes its toll. I know that it is real.That may not seem to help know someone does understand.I cant afford to move, physically unsure i could etc.At one time agoraphobic but with help i started by putting my shoes outside the door telling myself I WILL BE ABLE TO LEAVE ONE DAY FOR REAL. Each day i said this, i saw the shoes outside the door, eventually i added pennies to my change can, i put my keys, an outfit out and glad to say....now a drive is nice.The inside did not follow me. pls give yourself a break and pat yourself on the back...for just being.
Thank you. It is taxing, but knowing it's not just me and others have overcome similar challenges tells me it's not totally a loss. I'm glad to hear you made it through your obstacles! I really hope one day I will look back and say the same.
Yeah, blondethunder, a little nod, then 'watch this s&(t'sometimes you'll get so worked up, tense, self critical, that the first two steps you take out the front door will land you on the ground, be able to let go and belly laugh at slipping. that's all it is-is a slip.
Personally I say your mantra to try : 'F-it' and walk away from the place where you feel so stuck, just leave, even if only for a few hours. Even if forever. not F- the place, F-the bounds you feel. regard this place, as just that, a place. F- being stuck, drained, trapped depressed, say F-it, I may as well try to be free.
choose yourself over selfish self destruction
see, I was 21 and poor life choices had me moving 5 hours away, to my mothers basement. I got a job and stuff, but was disappointed in myself.
6 months later my mom died in my arms in a bad car accident.
I was trapped in the house, tied up with my own guilt. my own loneliness, my own selfish destruction of...self.
I had to leave. it was beyond hard.
But if you can find a way to not be so wrapped up, entertained by your own emotion, your self, you can at least try to be someone who is part of the world again.
Cause when you come out there are so many things to care about, this introversion is harder to stop, but at least there will be several things to be beside the self destruction.
In a time trap
Trapped in an elevator
Overwhelmed and trapped
All trauma is valid and non-comparable 💜
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