OCD, anxiety and depressed and support from loved ones.

[bbonni]

I am relatively new here and I was diagnosed with contamination OCD and anxiety 4 years ago. Tried some meds and therapy for a while and it didn't help much. Had to discontinue the meds as they were interfering with my ability to work.

In my case OCD is half my battle and the other half is related to relationship struggle due to OCD. It has completely changed the equation between me and my husband.

Trying to understand from others who are diagnosed with OCD or anxiety to see how their spouses or close family members treated you.

My husband doesn't care or wants to know the thought that's causing anxiety or triggering the OCD and constantly reminds me that I'm the one with the problem. He mocks saying you alone in this world will get these thoughts and shouts at me to deal with them.

He tries not to do things that trigger me, but sometimes when he does something that triggers me and it escalates, he goes to this rage mode and then he purposely does things which causes panic attacks and asks me to deal with it.

Lately he's been threatening and emotionally blackmailing me to do things that I fear the most and blaming me for ruining his life and also my son's life. I went to therapy and when I told him that Therapist asked to do these things, he will just say that the therapist is not living with you and she doesn't know. He also tells me that he turned this way because of me and my behavior. I had a very good relationship with my mother in law and his side of the family, now everybody turned against me and they accuse me of this relationship issues.

My son is 13 and I try my best to be a normal mom to him. My son knows about my condition and he is not bothered much.

I am becoming completely hopeless, depressed and suicidal . Whenever thoughts of suicide creep in, I constantly remind myself that I cannot do that and I have to stay for my son.I feel that whatever my husband is doing is wrong and at the same time also feel guilty that I am the one with the problem.

would appreciate if others share their thoughts and how they handled their relationship during their battle.

[Bean13]

I struggle with anxiety/OCD as well. I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. ❤️ I have a 2 month old son I am constantly worried about, and always fear something bad is going to happen to him. Sometimes, I feel like there is no hope.

My mom and husband know about my anxieties, but I usually talk to my husband. He is great at listening and he really does try to talk me down when my anxiety gets overwhelming. He is the exact opposite of me and pretty care-free about most things. I hate it that your husband doesn’t support you.. Sometimes spouses are the biggest help.

Also, please know that you are so loved and people need you here! I know it gets overwhelming, trust me. But your life matters so much! Praying for you ❤️

[bbonni in reply to Bean13]

Hi Bean13 thank for your support. Trying my best to stay positive and stay afloat.

[bbonni in reply to Bean13]

Since you are a new mom, wanted to share something that one of my friend went through. She was a very brave and independent woman who is not really like the emotional type, she developed OCD (fear of chemicals), within one year of giving birth. It took a toll on the wife and husband relationship and also her ability to do day today things(like laundry, going to grocery store and picking chemicals). She was this independent woman working as a IT project manager who could travel to different countries each quarter for work. She turned into this emotional wreck who became so scared of chemicals(laundry detergent, bathroom chemicals), couldn't do day today tasks without her husband's help. She reached out to Psychiatrist and was put on Zoloft 50mg for 1-2 years and became much better now. She later saw a neuro Psychiatrist who finally concluded that her pregnancy hormones might have triggered the OCD symptoms. She is almost free of OCD 4 years later.

[Bean13]

That’s awesome! I hope it happens for me.