Does anything matter anymore?

[oldtimer159]

No it doesn't feel like anything does matter anymore. I have no answers. I cant talk to friends because of covid. I dont know what to do. From tomorrow I will go to work full time which I havent been doing since last week and I wont know how to relax. When I take time to relax I dont know how to work. One meaningful relationship I have been keeping in this covid time with a friend, I dont know where it is heading or will head. I cried at 3 in the morning I couldn't sleep.

I screamed in my blanket that please help me someone please help me I dont know what to do. I dont know whats going on. Only things I feel now are emptiness with the feeling of life has no meaning and the other one emotional pain. I dont know how Im going to cope.

Thanks for reading.

[goldieoldie]

Hello Oldtimer,just thought I would say sorry to hear how down you are ,its difficult trying to find something worthwhile but Im sure talking on here will help,just remember there are 1000 is the same boat and though im long retired I havent anyone I can befriend and I really want to get a life before its too late.,feel free to reply and remember there are many people on here who care and are in the same boat !

[Hidden]

Finding meaning in our lives is incredibly difficult at times. But I want to stress that you are valid in being overwhelmed as there is a lot going on. It's okay to break down every now and again. The only things I can really recommend are working to find hobbies or things you enjoy that you can use to create some meaning for yourself. You should work to change your circumstances if you are unhappy with your life, meaning if you don't like your job find another. Or if you don't like where you live consider moving. I know these things can be challenging but we need to enjoy our surrounding otherwise we only end up feeling trapped by them. Our own comfort zones can become our personal prisons if we are not careful. And with finding connection, unfortunately the only way to do that is to put yourself out there and work at building those kinds of relationships. It's unfortunate especially when you are suffering because that makes everything else so much harder but that really is the only way. We cannot force anyone to like us or to spend time with us so we have to work at cultivating those friendships. And trust me I do not say this lightly. I am a person who has severely struggled with connection my entire life. So I know better than most how challenging this can be. But I also know in order to get people I have to talk to them whether or not I am good at it or not doesn't matter. They are not going to come to me if I don't put myself out there. And last I want to recommend therapy if you are not seeing someone. It is very helpful sometimes to just get things out of our own heads. And also you will learn coping skills to help you when things get to be to much. Take some time for yourself and make sure you acknowledge the good that you do and the value that you do have. It's hard right now but that doesn't define you nor does it mean this difficult moment is all that you are.

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

It’s always been so hard for me to make friends. As a child I was painfully shy. I played with kids in my neighborhood outside. My mom even got called to talk to teacher because I didn’t make friends or join in activities. I sat quietly and did my work. My mom blasted her of course for calling her because I was a good student. I had friends at home to play with. I sat alone at lunch a lot. People were nice to me I was just too shy to reciprocate. As an adult a classmate said they thought I may be a snob. I wasn’t. Just way too shy. As an adult I’ve grown so much. I’m not shy with strangers that much. Only if I may see you again or be friends. So therefore I don’t make friends. When I was married and my son was born I put everything I had in him and my husband and just never made time for myself. He’s just moved out and I am an empty nester. No life, hobbies friends etc. Don’t really know how to meet people. Yet a girl I played softball with in high school recently hit me up and I’m not doing anything. My energy or motivation is for necessary activities. Anything else I’d rather be with my dogs. So I say I’m lonely just don’t want to go around people. Double edge sword I guess. Anxiety, depression or low self esteem play a huge roll in that more than even being shy. Never put others ahead of your own well being and life. Just do you. Find things you enjoy and do it. Then you’ll find others with similar likes and dislikes. You just have to be open to it. When talking ask open ended questions that require answers to encourage conversation. You’ll know when you meet the right people.

[pam4him]

It sounds like you may be struggling with some depression. The pandemic has not helped any of us who have similar feelings. Are you in therapy? It might be good to see about some counseling, medication or perhaps a combination of both. Life has been/is so hard with all of the changes we've had to make due to COVID. Keep talking, here and to your friend. Try not to think about where the relationship is going. Rather enjoy where it is now. Hang in there, you got this! Prayers for peace, guidance and strength.

[pink318]

Hi- I’m so sorry you are going through a tough time. Thank you for sharing with us honestly about how you feel. I hope you will be comforted here, we are here for you so please continue to share. You can also talk to your doctor.

This pandemic brought different kinds of emotions to everyone. I was scared and anxious when I first heard about the lockdown. Sad also because I could not see my family and friends but thankful for the technology. I connect with them through video calls. Two months ago, the governor in my place announced the lifting of COVID restrictions and everything has returned to normal.

Please stay strong. I pray for peace as you go through hard times. Please keep us posted, God bless.