Does anything ever change?

[Mixedberries]

My first post. Once again, I sit alone while my family is away having a good time. I’m sure they are all tired of my depression. I am tired of myself. 7 grown, mostly functioning children, bad marriage, no career, no education, no future. What do you do when you don’t even want to be around yourself? They are all coming to my house for Xmas. I don’t know how i will do it. I just want to run away and never come back.

[Hidden]

Yes I understand. I stayed home once again this Thanksgiving. Your are not alone in this. You are a mirror image of me. I've felt this way for 18 years now.

[viiexplorer]

Think it's nice your sharing your concerns and worries. Do stay around as this forum will support and listen to you.

[Hidden]

The holidays are always a hard time for us with depression,all that extra stress,I feel like that too..you have 7 raised children how can you say you achieve nothing?you're stronger than you think,hugs

[Betty30]

Have you ever worked with a therapist? Maybe talk to your doctor first and ask him/her to recommend one. I am wondering if you are on any kind of helpful medication... I think both of those things would and could really, truly help you... I honestly believe that if a person truly WANTS to change / and or/ improve from any kind of mental situation, they CAN do it...but usually not without some kind of outside help... I know of myself, that it is easy to fall into 'habitual thinking ruts'...and it takes a REAL 'want to get out of this mess' attitude to get OUT of those ruts...but! It can be done!! But we DO need help...outside help...Please just know that. All kinds of good and loving wishes to you!!

[Kiapo450]

It’s hard to just live.