Lesson learned-i didn't have a psychiatrist and had a limited supply of my psych meds and also have side effects from one. Well, I just stopped taking them because I was hopeless finding a doctor with my insurance and learned my lesson the hard way. One makes me sleep eat and hungry all day and night and caused significant weight gain. I have had eating disorders and the weight gain disturbed me so bad I stopped the Zyprexa. I didn't think it was really working.
Well, I now have a great psychiatrist and back on my meds and am feeling great and a stable mood. I will accept the weight gain because my mental health is more important.
I almost destroyed my relationship with my boyfriend as my rage and ptsd was at their peak. I almost lost everything being off my meds.
Long story short, I'm back out of the darkness and will continue my regimen and enjoy life.