My room is filthy

[Iamtryingsohard]

I hate social media. I hate that im not pretty. I hate that I was born built like a fridge. I hate where I live because it's gross and I can't wait to get out of here. I hate how my body can't retain weight. I hate how skinny I am. I hate my acne. I hate most things about myself. I don't want to be here

[Agora1]

That's an awful lot of hate for one person to carry around each day.I'd like to Welcome you to this safe caring site for you to come to when feeling

so down and out.

Maybe we can help you turn those words of despair around for you, allowing

you to find some of the joys in your life. A good starting point, is in learning

to love yourself. Building up your self esteem and confidence one brick at a time

until you have made a comfortable home for yourself both inside and out.

I'm glad you took that step forward in joining our virtual family of friends.

Help and understanding are but a message away. xx

[Iamtryingsohard in reply to Agora1]

I was doing so well and the devil just loves to try and get me when I am on a better path. I want to love myself but when I look in the mirror at how skinny I am I just get so sad and i always see all these pretty women. Then there's me. I don't see what others see in me. I feel like I'm getting no where and I'm trying to keep my head up. Not even for me but for other people like my family.

Thanks for your kind words, idk what to do but im glad I found this website. I know im not alone

[Iamtryingsohard]

Thank you..I get so caught up on social media, its not making it any better. This standard for beauty is making me hate the body im in. And it's affecting me in everyway

[SirGrits]

Hey tryingsohard, I'm glad you've found this site. Welcome aboard. Have you been exposed to "cbt" yet? There's a lot of info on it on the web. For me, cbt taught me to challenge my negative and destructive thinking patterns. It's really been an answer to prayer for me. Do look into it. I think the thoughts you shared fit some of the typical patterns. CBT can give you the tools to break those thoughts' hold on you.

Hang in there & prayers friend.

[Iamtryingsohard in reply to SirGrits]

What is cbt?

[SirGrits]

Hey "...trying..", cbt = Cognitive Behavior Therapy

[Iamtryingsohard]

I will look it up and see how I work with it, thank you <3