Really can't be bothered

I'm so fed up I just lay here all day doing nothing just can't be bothered any more I get ups and downs al the time minds all over

[19710719]

I understand- what is your struggle? Anxiety/depression? Both?

[Hidden in reply to 19710719]

I struggle with both and also worry and feeling low all the time and hate my self

[Iammesues in reply to Hidden]

What’s a hostel?

[Hidden in reply to Iammesues]

It's a accommodation if you have no where to live

[Iammesues in reply to Hidden]

Many of us have places to live but with people who treat us badly. I have a roof over me but no caring below it. If you have kind people near you I’m happy for you. It doesn’t have to be someone related to have a person truly cares

[Hidden in reply to Iammesues]

I agree with you there we just need that one person who cares

[Iammesues in reply to Hidden]

I have met people on this site who really care. I didn’t think I ever could but it has saved me

[Hidden in reply to Iammesues]

Hopefully I will get to that point in my life I really do

[Iammesues in reply to Hidden]

There’s no one near me that has the understanding of me. They are not trustworthy or as insightful as needed to listen to me and see my world. There’s a difference when you look in someone’s eye and you see only an eye compared to seeing an understanding soul. I feel like I’ll know it when it happens

[Hidden in reply to Iammesues]

I agree with and hope you and everyone gets what they are needing in this time 🙂

[Fearoffear]

Have you been to therapy? Have they looked at anything else like ADD? Did they offer anything to intergrade you into living outside of prison like halfway house? I'm sorry I live in the States so I'm not sure how it is in the UK. I used to be like that everyday and then I started reading self helps and watching videos and learning breathing and meditation. It won't stay forever but it won't ever leave completely. But it is manageable with time and effort.

[Hidden in reply to Fearoffear]

I am getting help through counseling but im waiting for it to start up and I am in a hostel at the moment and the staff here are good but I am to anxious to tell them how I am tho thaks for you reply

[Fearoffear in reply to Hidden]

Is there any time of day that is calmer? Like for some reason my evenings were a relief. See if you can talk to someone about it then. I was told once, no one is a mind reader so you have to tell them what's on your mind. Write it down if you need to so you can explain it better. I hope the counciling will pick up and you can feel relief.

[Hidden in reply to Fearoffear]

Thank and I agree I should talk to someone and my evenings are calmer also an I do hope counselling picks up to thank for your support