Fried

Today I have the exact same energy that put me in the emergency room pleading for help.

I’ve learned that no matter how much self care, therapy, meditation or meds that I’m on....

There will simply just be those days where I cannot pull it together.

There will be days that are numb and empty.

This is all part of the great balance.

BUT F@ck......speaking to the universe as if it will listen.....it’s way more fun NOT feeling like this right now.

Guess I’ll FLOAT till the frequencies flip 🤷🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️

[Isinatra]

Hold on! Hope the ride won’t be too rough. ❤️🏄‍♀️

[Jeff1943]

In my younger days, a million years B.C., I used to have days like that. Can I just ask, have you ever tried diazepam/valium when you feel it's going to be one of those days?

I found if I took just one 5mg tablet (or even half of one) as soon as I felt the bad feeling it nipped it in the bud for the rest of the day. Sometimes it's easy to overlook the obvious solution.

I know that diazepam has been demonised to the point that most medics are too scared to prescribe it but taken only occasionally when needed it can be very useful.

[Hidden in reply to Jeff1943]

I use cannabis in same regard. But it is still illegal where I live. The pharmaceutical overlords have complete control of our politicians. If I could grow my own benzos they would be illegal too.

Another frustration for another day my friend!

[NoHoWarrior]

Good for you, PittieDad, for recognizing it is temporary and will pass. That is the hardest thing for me to see when I'm in my dark abyss. Hold on to the knowledge it will pass.

[propjock]

"When going through Hell...keep going." --Winston Churchill

Everybody has their limits, Pittiedad9. Yours are just further out there than most, and you get pushed to them more often.

[Hidden]

Oh how well I know this feeling, Pittiedad9. The despair is real, the numbness and emptiness are real, but, like you so eloquently stated, it is "all part of the great balance."

Yes, indeed, do stay afloat 🌈 this is where your power is.

[Hidden]

I don’t know what to say friend, u seem like you are having a rough time. I’m sorry for that

[Hidden]

I’ll be thinking about you today so know that at the very least you are not alone!

[Agora1]

Hi Bobbi

I've never been on Prozac but I was wondering how long you

have been on klonopin. It may have stopped working for you.

It does happen at times x

[Agora1]

I see that you doctor wants to try you on it.

In having cardiac problems, you need to have the cardiologist

involved with your medications as well in order to be safe. xx

[Agora1]

I hear you and that is not the life that you deserve.

Somebody in your city/county needs to do something to help you.

We can listen to you but you need the support we can't give you from afar.

That's terrible that you go hungry because you don't have the money.

There should be Social Services that can give you a caseworker to help you. xx

[Agora1]

My apologies Pittiedad, let me switch my responses over to Bobbi's Post.

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Do not apologize!!! You are a gift to so many🙏🙏🙏🙏

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

You're very kind but I realize how much you are hurting right now.

I wish I knew what to say. Even though I may not always respond,

know that I think of each and every one of those struggling. My best dear friend xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

I look up to you so much...I still react to my mental illness with such anger.

I’m always absorbing from people such as you, looking for more ways to accept and move forward. Bless you for being you friend❤️

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you x

[Hidden]

Lessthanone I share similar frustrations in a different financial spot. I have a good job, a great supportive wife with a good job, yet over years of meds and professional help, I found that cannabis is the only chemical help that gives me relief. I’ve been waiting years for it to become legal. I can get A monthly supply of pharmaceuticals for like 8$ on my insurance...yet I have to pay hundreds of dollars out of pocket for the thing I actually desire with little side effects.

Trapped is a good word

[Hidden]

Hi, how have you been??? I deleted some of my offensive posts, someone on here was making me angry, but it doesn't do good to stay angry, sometimes you have to let things go. I feel trapped myself!!!! My parents are probably ready to tell me to go to an abandoned women's shelter or something.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I feel it coming. They want me gone. Everyone wants me gone.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Heya hiya I have been so so. Somethings are amazing like coaching youth lacrosse and being a positive force in some young dudes lives. I dropped my psych meds months ago. Had a feeling thing were going to get touchy and they are.....doing the best I can searching for good things