Folks, I am not looking for sympathy here but need to put an update on this forum. Some of you know my troubles with anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts as of recent. I came home yesterday evening and, after not hearing a peep from her all day, I went to physically check on my roommate. Sadly I discovered she had passed away. She was 37, had her own struggles with anxiety, depression, and addiction, all of which she was recovering from and over the last month has been thriving. We think, as she had epilepsy since childhood, she had a fatal seizure. Some sort of drug OD is not ruled out yet as she was an IV user, but no drug paraphernalia was found so we are hoping, little solace as it may be, that she died clean and sober. We have been so proud of her recent improvement, progress, victory in that battle. If it is a factor in her death, than we love her just the same. Whatever the circumstances, she was way too young and full of life and it is simply heartbreaking.
It is an experience that has kept me in a little bit of shock, I think, since finding her and dealing with EMTs, police, and the coroner. Obviously to result in trauma issues for me would not be unreasonable. I do have complex PTSD and have had debilitating anxiety and depression over the last year, and have dealt with some suicidal ideations at times as a result. I will not make an attempt on my life, but am trying to process this and guess I just needed to post about it. I will talk with my therapist later today.
Thank you for listening, prayers for her and her family. Prayers for all of you for a lovely Sunday. 💜