I've been feeling the color gray

[RunningWind]

Been a while since I wrote. I haven't really felt like I needed to write anything. Haven't felt... Anything at all really? I know it's finals week(s) in university, I'm working +30 hours, and sleeping little but I thought I'd at least feel something? I have these periods where I'm just in an existing puddle of the color gray and then suddenly, like a burst of violent blues and purples, my anxiety and depression rains down on me again.

The times I'm feeling the color gray I just exist. I do things but I'm not really there doing them. It's nice when the colors change to that purple and blue, it's emotions that I haven't felt in a while but once I'm chin deep drowning again it's the worst period of my life.

It'd be nice to be comfortable in the color yellow and amber orange I find myself in on the occasion.

-a rant

[m123454]

Hi RunningWind,

I’m also in school- finals are stressful as always. I like how you said you feel like you’re in an existing puddle of gray, I think that is the perfect way to describe it for me too. Recently it’s been like I’ve been watching my life like a movie- like I’m just here existing while everything else just.. happens. Sorry things are a little off right now, hopefully things will turn up soon Message me anytime if you need to talk

[RunningWind in reply to m123454]

Thank you and I hope things go well for you too. Everyth is alot right now but I think later it will be better!