It starts in childhood.....

[secrets22]

Depression sadly starts in childhood,we may have been bullied,we may have been different,we may have been persecuted,but those feelings never leave us,and trying to be the person which is the norm is a losing battle,as we all have differences,and those differences will not be accepted by the most rational of people,because we have been brought up to only accept that which is, judged to be normal,but non of us are normal,and because of those differences we might well be judged.such is the intolerance of people,.?

[Roxylox]

I can totally identify with everything you say. I have been bullied at my first school for being heavier than than the others. Was no longer overweight by secondary school, was not bullied there and had friends. Made friends at first workplace, but when my kids were going to the local village Primary school was shunned by the yummy Mummies. Once they went to secondary school things were grand again. Went back working, was OK for almost 3 years then was bullied because a few of them perceived me as different, chief bully was a senior disability nurse. Ironic thing is I was working in a care home for people with intellectual disabilities!

The thing is I don't see any great difference between me and anyone else apart from slight physical awkwardness and shyness. As you say, no one is normal anyhow. I feel like lots of people on here that I have suffered unfairly by the ignorant judgment of these people who consider me abnormal. I have found, especially since joining here, that people who have issues are generally more compassionate and full of humanity than those who consider themselves more 'normal' and therefore superior to us.

Somebody else I think has wondered does being bullied once make us a target to be bullied again. Does that air of vulnerability stay with us?

[secrets22 in reply to Roxylox]

Roxylox.....hugs and more hugs for you,😪 bullying has happened to me all my life,and ocassionally still do,and its absolutely horrid,and if you are the least sensitive it hurts even more.xx

[Roxylox in reply to secrets22]

Totally does, and I am extra sensitive, thanks and many hugs back

[Mumma_h]

This has come to my mind lately too, that depression starts in childhood, well I’m sure it did for me. Good times and fun I think covered it up. I always had a deep fear of not being ‘normal ‘ or not being like my friends . I always had a fear of being abandoned and being a big mouth, because I spoke up when I was about 13 that I was sexually abused as a child by an uncle and mums boyfriend, I didn’t get the response I expected at all. My family were annoyed that I brought it up , it was a disruption to there lives and didn’t want to know. They were clearly angry . No wonder I ended up in an abusive marriage , I thought it was all my fault just like when I was a child . So yes I think depression can , but not always, come from childhood, I’m sure mine did

[Hidden in reply to Mumma_h]

Wow. What a deep and meaningful insightful story.