Dilema

[hysterie]

I'm afraid of contacting my therapist. I think he will not understand how bad this is. I am a psychology student, I have suffered with anxiety for a long time and I have experienced depression in my teen years but nothing like this. I feel like I am literally going to be here in this black hole my whole life and I don't think anyone is going to believe me when i say i cant get out of this dark place. I feel like people see me sad and that's it. Nothing too bad, nothing permanent. I live in a place where mental health is not very important. My family doesn't understand the implications of me being me and feeling like I feel. I've had a therapist since the last two years because of my career but I don't think (knowing him and his practice) that he's going to treat me in the urgency that I need. I don't think I'm OK living like this. If I lived in another country where things worked then I will probably be hospitalized. How can I communicate with the people around me so they understand that I did what I'm going through is grave, it's important, and it's urgent?

[Hidden]

I don't know how to help you talk to your therapist or family. But Ik how it feels to feel like you're in an endless black hole and feel hopeless. I find that being out in nature helps reset and recharge me and diminish the negative thoughts. And I'm here if you need to vent about anything ✌🖤

[RunningWind]

Hysterie, first please stay safe. Don't make any irrational in the moment decisions. I know it feels like forever. I know that hole feels so deep and dark... I've been there myself, I hear you. Secondly my friend, the only person who knows it's urgent is you. You have the availability to take action to get help. Unfortunately from what I read it sounds like the people around you don't understand how bad it is. You can tell them upfront but who knows how they will act for you. You are the only one in control of your actions, you have the ability to get the tools to build that ladder out of that hole you are in. It will be exhausting. You will tear down the ladder (I have done so myself) and fall back into the hole many times. But I know you can do it. I believe in you. Take care.

[Hidden]

Hey, if you are honestly feeling this bad to the point of possibly contemplating suicide, please get whatever help you can get!!!! Is there anyone you feel you can really trust, a good friend or relative, teacher, counselor, and yes even that therapist you feel skeptical about???? Maybe even checking out some kind of church pastor. I have bipolar disorder and I know first-hand how bad it sucks to be in some stupid psychiatric ward and all the stigma and shame, and I'm sure you're aware of all that too, but the bottom line is for you to stay safe, and if something like that is what you need, put away all your pride and GET HELP!!!! Or if not that, be around someone you can really be honest with for awhile and actually tell them to keep you away from stuff like knives and weapons and pills and poison and alcohol and all that. You know yourself best, and I care even though I don't know you. You can always try to call a crisis hotline like the Samaritans too. I'm praying for you.

[Gentlespirit]

I'm dealing with alot right now too and really struggling to keep it together. Please call your therapist or someone in your family for help.

[Gentlespirit]

I relate to a lot of what your saying and feeling and I will say to stop listen to what your thoughts are saying and to be patient with yourself. Try not to do something you may regret. If you can ride it out ok if not talk to your therapist.

[Gentlespirit]

Just try your best. Make a move to do something or do some investigating on what interests you ans see where it leads.

[Kiddle]

Could you pretend for a few moments that you are one of your future clients? What would your training and experience tell you to do for them?

I had to make a list for myself with the help of my T. My list includes: Am I feeling overwhelmed? Usually work /school for me. What can I eliminate for awhile? for example. Some practical stuff that worked for me.....going for a walk twice a day. Check my eating. Accomplish something. For me it can be as menial as fixing a simple computer problem. Doing a load of laundry and putting it away. Going out with a friend, telling them I ' m not in a good place and listen to their life. Talking about dumb stuff. My one friend can be counted on to relate every action of her dog.

Sometimes this doesn't get me out of the hole, just closer to the top. Hang in there.

[Gentlespirit]

Good suggestions. Thanks

[Gentlespirit]

Continue and do something.

[Gentlespirit]

I just need to take a break