Strange feeling

[alfreddy7]

Anyone else wakes up feeling great then all of the sudden there is a dark cloud over your head?

It’s like my ruminating didn’t even exist and all of the sudden I’m feeling so weird.

One second it’s all happiness and the next second is intrusive thoughts. On and off.

The mind of an over-thinker

[Hidden]

I have moments like this. Where I wake up and for literally one second I have no idea what is going on and it's bliss. Until the memories come back and I realize what my life is right now. But I have the bad habit of being stuck on rumination all day long. I can't stop myself from thinking, even when distracting myself a part of me in the background is just going over everything again, and again, and again. It's not an easy cycle to break. But keep going one day at a time. It will get easier. I know that seems impossible now but it will get better. You are not alone.

[alfreddy7 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for your kind words. I know this takes time. I’m only 2 months in and I’m already feeling better since I started practicing different things right away.

I know I’m in it for the long haul but eventually it will go away.

[Hidden in reply to alfreddy7]

That is wonderful. Reward yourself for that progress. And be happy you have started on the journey. Remember, compare yourself to who you were yesterday. Not to who others are today. Stay strong and keep practicing self love and compassion.

[alfreddy7 in reply to Hidden]

Posting in this support group makes me feel a little better. Not sure if it is part of my rumination looking for reassurance

[Hidden in reply to alfreddy7]

Perhaps. But if it makes you feel better that is a good thing. Just don't use it for your only source of validation. That could be a problem because then you are looking for others to make you happy when it's you who needs to do that.

[Roxylox]

I do find the smallest thing can set me off on overthinking. My biggest fear is of people's judgment, mostly false. I could walk into a shop and l will hear people commenting on me. False stuff was spread about me from my last workplace when I left a year ago and it still pops up to haunt me from time to time. I wish I could correct people's opinions of me, but I suppose it's not possible

Sorry for ranting on. Am a little better at ignoring now and have a happy home life. What usually triggers you to overthinking or is there a reason at all? Do you think keeping busy at a task or a hobby, or going for a walk while listening to music could help you? Maybe even music alone.

[alfreddy7 in reply to Roxylox]

Hi Roxylox

I’m really not sure what triggers it.

It just comes and goes. I just don’t pay attention to it and it usually goes away. Cause I know they’re just thoughts and feelings I should not Ruminate on.

[SirGrits]

Yeah, I'm with you alfreddy7. I usually don't realize what happened until I've already be spinning my "thought-tires" for awhile. The closest I've come to identifying a trigger is disappointment. The hardest ones to recover from are the spirals set off by my own failure; like somehow replaying it in my mind will overwrite what actually happened. Stepping out of the thoughts and recognizing them stops the cycle, but the cycle starts still sneak up on me from time to time.

God speed.

[alfreddy7 in reply to SirGrits]

Hi sirgrits

My trigger could be that I think about the future.

Like if I’m still gonna be the way I am in the future and it scares me.

But that is just a wild guess.

I do tell myself at times that this is not gonna go away soon. That the cycle will keep coming and that I will be ready for it and let it come.

I think we are ok as long as we know who we are and have it under control

[Purple_haze51]

I do all the time I hate it