Thoughts

[Dragon3695]

As I sit here babysitting my roommate's son, I started thinking about the journey I've been on since July of last year. Two months before I ever moved I knew I was leaving my ex. The choice was a long time coming because she was getting worse and worse health wise. I could no longer take care of her at my own expense and I had to put me first for once. While I still struggle putting myself first in my current environment, I have grown leaps and bounds I would like to believe. My roommate and I have our disagreements and fights but we at least communicate with each other and try to make things work for us both. I'm learning just how inept my communication skills are and I'm working hard to be better than I was yesterday every day. My depression is mostly under control except the occasional bad day or stray thought getting through. I'm not perfect and I never will be but I'm okay with it. The only thing I feel I'm missing just someone to connect with on a more intimate level and as much as I want that I realize I need to quit obsessing over it and just do me for once and try to learn to be okay with myself. A lot on my plate I know but my support system is falling in place day by day and I'm feeling more and more confident in the changes that are happening to better myself. Thank you to everyone on here that has commented and/or offered me advice. You all are a big part of my support system and I'm forever grateful.

[Hidden]

Nice to see progress. Just to believe friend that u were feeling bad just a few weeks ago but now u are getting better. That's ausome, I hope it goes up up up

[Dragon3695 in reply to Hidden]

I hope it keeps going up myself. The key things to remember are take baby steps instead of trying to rush it and you will have bad days but you need to just accept them as part of the process. Try to learn what you can from the bad days and just be better today than you were yesterday

[Hidden in reply to Dragon3695]

Well said friend, well said