Paxil withdrawal

[Armymom99]

I went from 30s to 20s. That was not a bad transition. Then I really, really tried to go from 20s to 10s. WOW. I haven’t cried so much since my nervous breakdown in 2019 and part of 2020. I was sweating, my heart was racing, my blood pressure was off the chart and no sleep. I ended back on the 20s. I tried but I have so much stress right now. My mom has end stage dementia that I help care for in the evenings. My son just came home in December from the Army. He was injured in the Middle East and on permanent disability. He is having a hard time. My husband of 25 years cheated on me in 2019. I lost it. My only child was deployed and I had paid for a cruise for out 25th anniversary as a surprise. I moved in with friends for a while. After the five different meds I was put on to wake up, to get through the day and to sleep. I am off of all except the Paxil. I am on my own for the first time in my life. I have my own everything. I am getting more and more independent. It’s so scary. I just want to be off everything. I want to me happy again. I know I will one day but I literally lost a year of my life being depressed and anxious and on all the meds. I gained so much weight with all the meds. They don’t tell you that is a giant side effect. So not only dealing with all this crap, I need to deal with losing weight too. Thank you for listening to me ramble.