Are we in this together?

[AK0424]

Some days this means so much. I keep how I feel deep inside because I fear how people will respond. "I have anxiety too" or "It could be worse" or "Well I have...". I get it. We're in a pandemic. Everyone is going through anxiety and depression. But we don't experience it the same way. I freeze. I break down. I get paralyzed. I cry. I don't tell anyone my feelings but want to so I'm not alone. It's a double-edged sword. Yes, some days are good and some are bad. But I'm trying. I have been through what I've been through, even if no one understands. But it's my feelings, my reactions. Don't make me feel stupid for my reactions. Maybe it could be worse. But that doesn't help me. I need to know what I feel is ok. I need to know someone is there to care, even if you think I'm overreacting, just don't make me feel like I'm overreacting. I'm my own worst enemy. I am the hardest person on myself. I am my own worst critic. Ever since I was a kid (narcissistic father who was mentally abusive an the fact I've always been very short for my age and picked on). I just want to feel accepted for who I am. Sorry, guess I'm just venting. See, my mind is a fun house, it's a different thing depending on which way you turn, and the fear of never getting out is real.

[Hb2003]

We are in this together we are like a family we care about you will not judge you don’t apologize for venting ❤️❤️❤️🫂🫂

[AK0424 in reply to Hb2003]

Thank you. Means a lot

[Hb2003 in reply to AK0424]

Your welcome ❤️

[Agora1]

AK0424, I so hear you. I was always hesitant in letting my guard down because some of the answers were like a double punch in the stomach. When the emotional/physical pain of anxiety was at it's worse, it didn't help for me to hear someone say "oh, I have anxiety too"

and yet they were working, laughing, talking etc.

That's when I started to realize that I have to tune them out for my own benefit.

There is "anxiety" and there is "anxiety. We all experience it differently, we all are in

different phases of anxiety. I use to equate their answers to the word "headache".

That word is used so much that it's lost it's meaning as has "anxiety". I so understand what you are saying xx

[AK0424 in reply to Agora1]

You are so right. Plus I don't want to look weak, even when I'm probably got a 12 story building on my shoulders plus a hotel and whatnot. I try to ignore or let it go, but it's so hard. It's like cement and I don't have the energy to chop away at it.

[AK0424]

I have (and again this is a hard thing for me to actually admit - anxiety trigger) had a therapist for probably 20 years. This past year has felt like a neverending story... Do all you can to get through each day. I'm sorry for what you've been through (I have a habit of saying sorry for everything even when it's not my fault, my way of giving sympathy I guess). I hope you are able to get through things yourself.

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Your mind is not a fun house. You realyy are hard on urself. Don't be. We all want to be accepted by those we love. Ur height and weight does not make u. U have to come to a place where u are confident about urself. You don't have to tell people that u suffer from depression and enxiety, it is not their business. We are here for you and we have ur back