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What equals anxiety for youTRIGGER suicide

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Swallowed anger?

Shame from the past hurts?

Heredity?

Fear?

Why does anxiety live with us/where does it come from?

For me: Lately I’ve been working with an amazing therapist who is helping me with grief and healing because in ‘97 my brother took his life. I never faced it properly I don’t think. I never talked through what happened. I’ve always been shy and anxious as a child but I think after my brother died when I was 21 a part of me died. And from that grew a fear that the same type of horrific event would happen again. Every day now I have some flashbacks as memories are bubbling up to the surface. Time to heal.

Healing and freedom I wish for all of you.

Where does your anxiety stem from?

Let it out, don’t bottle it up.

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lots of things being in a toxic relationship with a “friend” . When my brother is not feeling well . when people are rude to me . Going to the doctor sometimes .

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First, I am glad to hear that you are making progress with your therapist. Dealing with past trauma's is difficult so the fact that you are going through this proves how strong you are.

For me my anxieties and depression stem from my inability to move forward. I never expected to live past 25 so I never cared about myself, nor did I make plans for my future. I just existed. I just survived. So now I am at constant war with myself to make something of myself but the other part of this is that my life has been nothing but pain and suffering. I was abused my whole childhood both physically and emotionally. I have been betrayed by everyone who said they loved me. I am bitter, resentful, and full of anger. I'm only 28. So I have no motivation to do anything for myself on top of the fact that I hear everyone's voice in my head telling me I am a failure or that I am a monster. My abusive ex is the loudest. I get anxious because I keep losing things in life and I am sick of being alone but I am doing nothing to change that. I don't know how to change it. So it's a cycle of I can't let go of my past trauma's combined with the fact that I have no self confidence and am just resentful of everything.

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Sorry about your loss!For me...it's hard to put a finger on where it comes from. It's like the chicken and egg thing was I anxious first or depressed? I think I'm afraid of everything! I really am...I'm terrified of dying and I'm terrified of living. All I can do is keep trying. My best to you and everyone out there suffering

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For me, shame of my past and a failure to forgive myself resulted in feelings of condemnation leading to multiple suicide attempts. By God's grace I am still alive. I, for the most part, have forgiven myself. I struggle with many regrets. I lost a good job, a home that my wife and I had purchased. Most of all, I lost a great family. I am estranged from my 2 adult children. My wife and I usually only have contact to work on financial matters. We have not divorced because she will not get my monthly pension if I pass away before her if we are legally separated or divorced. It is not likely we will reconcile, so we are both technically single with the limitations of still being married.

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❤️ I’m sorry life has been difficult ... my heart goes out to you. I am glad you are here. ❤️

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