I have ruined my life

[Shilpa08]

Hii guys nothing has changed in me I have become more worse left my husband house but feel like going back but I can’t go back as I have done a blunder...I am mentally unstable a very bad person I keep on posting my things and talking to people but don’t do anything this has become my habit...I don’t know if I will survive or not but I have no interest in living now...tried everything...hate everyone around me I live Ina fantasy world and can’t get out of it at all

[Hidden]

Everyone makes mistakes; it doesn't mean it's the end of the world. You have not ruined your life. You are also not a bad person. Do you feel you are because of your blunder?

[Sunnidayz1]

Yes, you can get out of it. The "it" is not the world around you, the "it" is in your mind. It's sooo easy for us to look at ourselves in a negative way. Easy. And bc of that it's very easy to go into the "rabbit hole" of self hatred. The good news is your perception is not true. They are lies. It's good news bc all of the negative thoughts that go through your mind about yourself and the world can be changed. Ive done it and you can do it too. There is hope and it all starts and ends with your thoughts.

[DSBK2 in reply to Sunnidayz1]

I totally agree. Unfortunately I'm stuck in the rabbit hole. I need to learn to climb out without bad self talk/anxiety. My biggest steps of the week is to get out to get scripts, therapy and grocery shopping. I'm still trying to get out of bed since I woke at 7:30. Going to start with my 1/2 caf coffee. Too much caffeine makes my anxiety worse.

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to DSBK2]

Take small steps in the process to get there. It is work. Congrats on knowing u r in the rabbit hole. Now u have a goal: to get out of it so that u can do the things u want to do. I can help u. PM me. You can make changes today.

[DSBK2]

I'm new here, but I can tell you you're worth getting healthy. A blunder. All people with or without depression make blunders. It's how we learn. I have extreme trouble with bad self talk. You're sharing. Very important. Hope you day appears better today.

[Shilpa08]

Thank you all for replies but my situation is so different can’t explain what thoughts I get I am such a bad person

[Hidden in reply to Shilpa08]

Hi Shilpa08 it doesnt matter how bad your thoughts are I dont judge you as a bad person. Please dont hate yourself. I may be wrong but I think there is a little more inside you that you are finding hard to share. I just want you to know there arent any judgements from me if you want to open up more I promise you. Even if you find it hard to talk here, it may help you to share your thoughts and feelings with someone you trust. Do you think theres anyone around who you could open up to?

[Shilpa08 in reply to Hidden]

Hii yes I have lots to share but I just can’t control my thoughts and I tell them to many people then I hate myself

[Hidden]

Stop hating yourself. Forgive yourself. Stop doing bad things to other people if you are snd to yourself. Make the change be angry enough to make the change. You do not need to suffer if you can forgive yourself and accept change.