Help, Fear and Panic ruining my life

[JP26]

My confidence and nerves are completely shot, I am terrified of making decisions and I doubt anything and everything. My anxious thoughts and feelings have complete control over me and I just don’t want to live anymore, all I can think about is being free from this misery. I’ve read the Claire Weekes books and other self help books and I just can’t put any of it into practice it’s hopeless, I need some help but I don’t know where else to turn

[Clynn34]

Hi JP26,I can understand and relate to what your saying. So sorry your feeling this way right now. It's hard I know, and it helps to have support. I'm not sure what help is provided where you are, but please reach out to a crisis team or hospital. Do you have a therapist or counselor?

Not sure if you are a spiritual person but, I am praying for you that things turn around for the better and something comes to your path that will elevate and encourage you to take it one step, or even a second at time to gain peace.

[JP26 in reply to Clynn34]

I Clynn34 I have reached out to the crisis team on a couple of occasions but they just seem to refer me back to the mental health team and I never get anywhere with them.

I am looking into yet another therapist but I’ve all but given up hope that anything can or will make a difference.

[autumnmarie5]

Hello friend. I am so sorry to read this and I can empathize with the pain you are feeling. Sometimes the pain is so great all we want to do is hide away. With my anxiety I have gotten very good at isolation and just wanting to sleep or be tired all the time. It can be hard but the good days are normally good! I don't know if you see a therapist or if you take any medication? I have found both of those combined really do help me as well as techniques that can calm the body and nervous system down. I don't know if you are a spiritual person but I would be more than happy to pray for you in this time! I also have an app called Abide that is Christian meditation that really helps me as well. I am always a message away if you need to talk to someone who understands what you are going through. Panic doesn't make sense to those who don't go through it. I hope it turns around for you and you find some sort of relief! 😊

[JP26 in reply to autumnmarie5]

Thanks autumnmarie, can I ask what type of therapy and medication you have found beneficial please?

[autumnmarie5]

Oh of course! I am on 75 mg of Zoloft everyday and that has been helping in the morning when I take it, then I take 100 mg of Hydroxyzine as needed (more when i'm having a panic attack) and it makes me a little drowsy but definitely more calm. I can still operate with the drowziness, it really just calms my body down when needed and helps me sleep better at night. I have only been to one therapy session before Thanksgiving and I loved it, she wanted to see me every other week but since my insurance wouldn't cover it, I couldn't afford $135 every other week. I since then have been doing research to find one around my area that's more affordable or would be able to take my insurance. I found one online for tomorrow that was only $30 with my insurance so I am excited to try again. I don't recommend doing online if you can help it. In person is so much more beneficial for help you can really get that person to person contact. Since I was desperate for one I just went with what I could find and afford with now. I have done SO much research on my anxiety, if it has to do with it, I probably have researched it a time or two. I have found that CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) is good for this as well. I am hoping that the appointment I have tomorrow will go into more detail of that and some strategies to help my issues. I think it's worth a shot for you. Also you can try meditation. I am a Christian and I use an app called Abide and it really helps. I hope this information helped you or else you just read a comment of me rambling on 😅 If you need anything else or someone to talk to i'm just a message away! I know sometimes for me it's easier venting to a stranger who won't judge me versus someone I know personally 😊👍

[JP26 in reply to autumnmarie5]

Thank you autumn that is very informative. I too feel like an expert on the subject now as I’ve read every self help book and website about anxiety and depression it seems but still I wake up each morning feeling awful and struggling through the day. I am glad you have found a new therapy and hope it works out for you. I might consider medication and therapy again I’ve just been put off due to my lack of previous success with it so far.

[autumnmarie5 in reply to JP26]

I believe it's good that we know about our issues instead of just trying to dismiss them. No problem! Hope all is continues to go good with you as well 😊