overwhelmed

[gabrielle00]

so im enrolled this semester and also living off campus with one of my friends. i can’t help but to compare myself to my roommate. she always gets her work done, has a smile on her face, works out, wake up early, is smart, etc etc. meanwhile, im already behind in my classes, it takes me so long to complete one reading, im anxious all the time, quiet, and don’t know how to make jokes. i just want to cry. I hate myself. I wish I was dead. there’s more thoughts going through my head right now, but I have no energy to type everything out. I just wanna lay in bed and not wake up. maybe I should have taken a gap semester, fuck. but if I took a gap semester, that means I’d graduate late and I just wanna be done with school. UGH. i have no motivation whatsoever. im so tired. i cant even take care of myself.

[Hidden]

I know exactly how you feel. I compare myself to people when I see them happy and smiling, even with people that is jut chilling. Energy is very low every day and tasks are very difficult to achieve, but we can’t give up, we need to tell ourselves that we are stronger than our feelings and at least try every day. Hang in there you are not alone.

[gabrielle00 in reply to Hidden]

trying is so hard. I feel like im dragging my roommate down, I feel so bad. I also have so much work to do that I dont even understand how to approach.

[Hidden in reply to gabrielle00]

All you can do is try, not trying is worse than failing, just do a little bit at the time, that will stay and your mind will know that you can at least go that far.

[gabrielle00 in reply to Hidden]

thank you guacho, I will try my best

[Hidden in reply to gabrielle00]

You are welcome, stay strong

[Tine5]

I completely relate with you and have felt and am going through the same as a student but i live with my family. But i often do compare myself to others friends i grew up with that seam to gave a completely perfect life compared to me. Do not quiet your school because it will be too hard to restart and get use to school again if you take a year off. You can always drop a class or two or do part time if your full-time. And also force yourself not to get lost in only doing school work and readings. Its easy to pretend like you do not have time to do anything else but school. But plan a time in your day 15-20 minutes to do something that brings you joy. Or one day out of the week to do an activity you enjoy. And i know im also late in my classes and trying to catch up. Just remember your unique and beautiful in your own way and it would be boring to have a world filled with people like your friend. you are you own you. And tell yourself its a funk and it will not last. emotions come in waves 🌊 they shift back and forth and dont last. their also periods of calm and stillness and others of turbulence but do not last forever. Dont be hard on yourself by only thinking of the negative as life is already even more challenging with covid and doing 100% online it can be difficult and exasperating.

[13ga]

hi gabrielle;

first off - i'd like to suggest that it's not a good idea to compare yourself to someone else in that way... everyone is an individual - and we all have our own unique personality, challenges, reactions, etc...

you might look at someone and say - i'd like to be more like this aspect of them - but it's not realistic to say - they look like they do everything right, and i feel like i don't. negative thinking won't help you.

if you want to emulate some of the positive things your roomate does - maybe setting yourself a schedule - like getting up at a certain time; working out - setup a routine for yourself - but make it YOUR routine!!

you should find a routine that encourages you in positive ways; and also that you can succeed in maintaining.

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secondly - from what you described - you may be suffering from depression. and if you don't address the depression, if could worsen, and make all of the things you're having trouble doing - even harder....

i'd recommend you seek professional help to get an opinion on your mental state - and possibly seek treatment if it makes sense. if you are depressed - that explains everything you've described - and treatment may help you get motivated, as well as increasing your ability to focus.

[Hidden]

Comparing self with others is not a bad thing as long as it does not make u feel like this. Why don't you copy from your friend, like exercise with her, when she studies join her and just spend time with her without her noticing. Seems u would like to be like her. U are not jelouse of her but u admire her. There is nothing wrong with admiring someone. I think this is overwhelming for you and u can not do this on your own, maybe u should see a doctor and get pills 2 help u. Depression is not something that can be fought without external help. Please do get help