Darkness

[Macacohita]

I feel so alone, i feel like I’m not going progress... that male me feel demotivating for everything! Every time i have an idea my dad tell something negative about it... I don’t have his support, I think he is never proud of me on nothing. I disappointed him!

[hypercat54]

Hi nice to meet you. You say in your bio you are 26. Why is your fathers opinion of you still so important to you? If he has always been like this then it is useless still hoping for his support as he won't change. You need to get the support you need from other people instead. Then in time you won't need his anymore.

[Indiegal]

I'm sorry to hear your dad is so negative toward you. My dad was like that when I was younger and I never felt like I could do anything right. It's hard to separate your opinions of yourself from the opinions of others, especially our parents. I moved across the country at one point to get away from mine and live the way I wanted to live without their judgment. It helped to put some distance between us but didn't really fix everything. I think the best thing you can do is find others who are more supportive like friends or groups that have similar interests. They can help keep you strong to have someone in your corner even when it feels like your dad isn't. Like most parents, I'm sure he just wants what's best for you, but in the end it's your life and you have to live it like you want to no matter how much others disagree with it.

[Hidden]

You are not alone, please know that. I face a similar issue with my dad my whole life I feel like I live in his shadow and that I have to always be cautious and can't freely do what I want to if I think he might not like it. He is a narccisst and sometimes I just feel bad for him. Like i definitely love him but the love is pretty conditional.. i have tried and contiue to try to open him up but It is very difficult, it is not easy. I try to take it one day at a time with my struggles and it is not my duty to fix my dad but I will try to forgive him and help I hope. Ultimately I feel like we can only do our best and gotta live our lives for ourselves even if it means that things are not perfect and our dads aren't totally satisfied. I have no answers just sending you my best and wishing my self the best too. Toxic love is difficult to handle, don't be to hard on yourself and try your best to get back in touch with yourself.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Also perfection would be cool if it exists idk if that's what enlightenment is but it's also incredibly difficult and I don't know if it is enlightenment or a compulsion Maybe it is maybe it isn't. Idk I do try for it and can be better but I just don't know. I make many mistakes. Again wishing you the best and don't take any of my words to seriously.

[Hidden]

How are you?

I can see that you love your dad very much and you would like to have his support and that is not a wrong thing. Most of the time we think our parents know everything and they know what to do but that might not be the case. Most parents are clueless. Perhaps your dad is not fully educated on the matters of depression and enxiety. I am pretty sure he likes to be a source of support maybe it just that he does not know how to support you. Have you spoken to him about this? You might be surprised that he does not see that. This also happened to me as I was chilling in the lounge with sister whom we do not realy click that she thought I was negetive about something and she shouted at me for it and when she explained why she thought, I was surprised that when she was speaking to me I was not even listening to her replying to someone IN HU. So, don't think like that until you are sure of it.