Why again and again

[oldtimer159]

I do well for some time and then I slack off. I find ways to fight it and win but it comes back again. I just studied for 1 week straight without any movies or series or any entertainment and today I yesterday I saw a series and totally lost it. And this has been happening since many years. I'm really tired of this inconsistent shit. Nothing works for a long time. No type of treatment lasts for me. At this hour i'm stuck watching depression short stories and multifandoms on Youtube and my stomach is hurting because of stomach ulcer. If I eat more I wont be able to sleep because of the pain. I just dont understand why and what and till when to keep doing this shit again and again.

[Trying1268]

Take a deep breath and try to relax. We all have times where we are doing well then we falter. You know what, that is part of life, no one is perfect. Take things one step at a time.

I heard an expression once and have adopted it ever since. I felt like it was my motto in life.

"fail your way forward." in other words learn from your mistakes and move forward. aka if something is not working try something else.

I recently started reading Claire Weekes book Hope and help for your nerves. It has been such a wealth of information. It is going to be my current approach towards dealing with my panic attacks.

Be well.

[oldtimer159 in reply to Trying1268]

That's a good way to put it. "Fail your way forward." I connect with it. Done that all my life. But its making me worse for wear everytime so I don't like it. I know there is no alternative to this really. Troubles do pile on and we just have to deal with them in different ways.I've noted the book. Will read it once I finish my current one.

Wish you luck and strength for dealing with your panic attacks.

Thanks

[Trying1268 in reply to oldtimer159]

Remember to re-frame you thinking about about the word fail or mistake. Its about ruling out options. You tried something it didn't work you try something else.

Don't look at them as failures, look at them as options tried, need to find new option. That way your not feeling negative. Because there is no reason to feel negative. It is, what, it is as Claire weeks would say "just float with it"

There are no right or wrong answers to life or how each one of us deal with our anxiety. Heck, at the moment my way is failing me. So I'm trying something new. I look at it as each method I learn makes me a little bit stronger.

One day, when I am at full strength, I win!

Be Well.

[oldtimer159 in reply to Trying1268]

Those are really good words and i appreciate them. Definitely need to find new options. The way you are fighting your battles inspire me.

You will definitely win!

[Trying1268 in reply to oldtimer159]

Aww thank you so much. At the moment all I can say is I'm trying. Some things work and some things don't.

The trick is not to let it get you down

Be well.

[Gentlespirit]

I tried watching a variety of movies. Maybe that will help??