I hate myself for feeling jealous

[Whiskers16]

I can’t stop this feeling of jealousy of everyone. Even my best friends who are there for me but because they arnt going through this I feel so jealous but hate myself for feeling this way about them

[lillyofthevalley37]

One day they might be going thru a hard time and you may be having a great time in your life so it really is best to accept it, try to solve your problems and make your life better but don't allow envy to rise up because it is not in any way useful

[Grateful71]

Hi Whiskers16, don't be hard on yourself for feeling this way I think it's a natural human response when we are suffering to want to suffer less. When we think we are the only one suffering then we can envy others but I think it's just a reaction to not wanting to feel the way you do. Everyone suffers at some point most days, not always extreme but even your friends will have highs and lows during the day. I often look around me and can think everyone can cope with life so much better than me, we are all different and there is nothing wrong with you. When you can accept the support of your friends I'm sure they love you even though you can feel anxious and/or depressed 💛

[Whiskers16 in reply to Grateful71]

Thank you.. it’s just apart from on this group no one I know suffers with this level of anxiety so cannot relate at all to what we go through in a daily basis

[Grateful71 in reply to Whiskers16]

I have not met anyone in my life who at some point hasn't suffered from some level of anxiety or depression at some point. In time what you have experienced and learned from it might be really supportive and helpful to your friends in the future. As hard as it it maybe the something good can come from the hard times. X

[oldtimer159 in reply to Whiskers16]

I am having the same problem. Whoever really knows me are very far away from me now. But you can try to connect. Be subtle and confess just a small thing to someone you trust and you wont feel so alone. Don't think of your anxiety as something to be ashamed of. It is there and it is a real problem with many people. Possibly the people near you are also going through it but they just mask it better. Confessing you have it doesn't make you weak but the contrary. You start accepting yourself and then its easy to work on it in a better way.

[Whiskers16 in reply to oldtimer159]

I am very open about my anxiety to my close friends but they have never experienced anything like this so admit they cannot understand.I just feel such a nasty person when I have these thoughts and feel like I’m being paid back for them.

[oldtimer159 in reply to Whiskers16]

I know it hurts. Many of us here have felt what you are going through right now. I am not in a position to give you much advice cause even I don't have the answers yet. But what helps me is knowing that there is no denying these feeling and the fact that I have to bear the pain if don't have a solution. Difficult but its all I have.

[Tillymay in reply to Whiskers16]

Your not a nasty person.You feel this way because you feel alone.I know deep down you want your friends to be happy.You would hate them to feel the way you feel.Its so hard when you haven’t got anyone that understands it makes you envy others.xxx

[oldtimer159]

Ofcourse you will feel jealous. Its natural. Who doesn't not want depression, right? Don't increase your pain by thinking this is wrong. Just don't act on that jealousy. That is your choice. The feeling isn't.