So Sad and don't know why

[sosad12]

I gave up in Nov and ended up in the hospital not knowing who I was or where I was. I need help I am sad all the time and my bf of 8 yrs has given up on me he said he can't handle me not being positive. I thought he would be there for me. I do understand that I depressed. and need help. What is wrong with me. I also have other medical problems and everyday I have a hard time not giving up and letting my self go.

[FifLove]

Hi sosad12,

I am so sorry that you are going through this tough time. It sounds as if you feel that you are at a crossroads of sorts. Please take one minute at a time to get through, and try to exercise some self care along the way. You will get through, and this community is here for support. I too have a very difficult relationship with my husband, and am experiencing medical problems. I too must take things one step at a time. Maybe talking to a therapist would help as well. Take care of yourself first.

[sosad12 in reply to FifLove]

Thank you fiflove I don't feel alone so much now. I am going to look for a therapies after the holidays or maybe I should look for one now. woke up this morning and my face was swollen. Not sure what caused it. I wish I was not sad all the time. And it does not help that my bf of 8 yrs gave up on me why would he do that. time for bed maybe I will just sleep so I can forget

[FifLove in reply to sosad12]

Sometimes we need to sleep and to grieve. There is nothing wrong with allowing yourself that time. Just don’t let it linger too long. If you can, it may be good to look into therapists now. Sometimes there are openings in the beginning of the new year due to insurance deductibles. I’m so glad that you’re feeling less alone. I know it’s not the same as flesh and blood people, but you have a whole community behind you here that understands what you’re experiencing.

[mauv]

Depression is a disease that effects the chemicals in our brain to decrease. We didn’t cause it, we can’t control it or cure it. It makes it easier when we accept that it is a disease. Stress can change the chemicals. You need a boyfriend that is willing to understand the disease and support you in it. If he won’t support you and understand it is very hard to be positive. You first need a good therapist, antidepressants. support. Then you take baby steps to get out of it. I am her for support. Hang in there sosad