Confused

[UkyoCoanccy]

Everyday I struggle with very tiny periods of lost of memory. I mean as an example, when I am at work I have to deal with different issues but suddenly I find myself completely lost and asking to myself " what I was doing" then I start checking around me to see if I find a clue of my activity in that moment. Some times I remember in a minute or less. But this happen many times in the day. Another example is when I am talking. I feel like if I forget how to speak. I forget the words or sometimes I forget what I wanted to say.

I try to make notes as before because that was something that I used to do to keep control of important things but I notice that also I forget to check my notes most of the time or some times I misplace them. 2 years ago I was not like this. I have control of everything in my life. Now I can not keep control of my mind.

For me is too hard but I think that for my doctors is not a great problem.

Does someone feel something lile this?

[Jubmay]

I do experience it but not usually

[Myre]

It was worse at the beginning. I kinda quit speaking because of this, the words never fit, talking became a compromise. Rather than expressing myself, I felt i was substituting and filling in for my incomprehensible thoughts with basic terms, speaking in other people's words rather than saying what I felt cos I just couldn't remember how to talk. The forgetfulness checks too, I've been doing some intensive studying about this and both are effects of depression. At first we describe it in a manner you explain a broken leg at the hospital, directly logical, expecting a clear solution, the precision of procedure and order but depression really is a mood disorder primarily functioning on our defective emotional stature from whence it extends to affect near all other factors of our lives. When you become comfortable with your feelings, you fit better within your skin, regain control of those loose elements of your character, your mind comes under order. Oh that's not easy to achieve, just you know you are not alone. ❤️, hugs and kisses for the struggle to retrieve control over your life. Best of luck.