Return to "normal" Week 2.

[BluePeppermint]

First, sorry I've been missing in action! I had such a wonderful Friday afternoon at work and then spent the night at my parents. Sunday I just wanted to relax and read. Then, after work yesterday, I had enough of the computer. Anyway, I am no longer throwing up before work every morning. I actually don't feel too anxious going to work. I feel like that's an accomplishment, and then I feel bad that doing something I've done for 24 years feels like an accomplishment. I mean, this is a new-ish job (2 years in April), compared to 17 and a half at my last job. But seriously, should getting up and going to work feel like a milestone? I don't know. What I do know is I feel really, really good and I'll take that. Every little moment that I feel good about myself and my life, I'll take.

I know this time of year is hard on a lot of people. Trust me, it's hard on me to. I lost my favorite aunt on Christmas Day of '99 and all these years later, it still makes me sad. Add the damn pandemic to all the hard-enough-as-it-is holiday depression and we have a sh*t storm brewing. I don't know if we're supposed to "meet" every day, or once a week, or when we feel like it...but from me to you: You are not alone. People care about you. People love you.

[Hidden]

I am sorry about your aunt. Sometimes are emotions get to us and we feel like doing nothing, it is OK on occasion not to do anything and have freedom of stress and burden. But once you feel like it do a little, small steps for your goal. It is probably time to see doctor if you feel like doing nothing for long periods of time as he/she will recommend good psychiatrist

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Indieabc, that was a nice response to BluePeppermint x Small steps allow us to reach our goal just as well as a giant step forward. Whenever we get caught up in a cycle of just existing, you're right, it's time to get professional help. Life can be good again. xx