I’m scared

[whateverlovely248]

This is my first post and I’m honestly really scared to reach for support but my therapist told to take a leap and try. My depression has gotten out of control and I have an appointment w/ my doctor today to talk about trying antidepressants. I’m really scared but I know I need them. Right now I’m laying in bed on the verge of an anxiety attack obsessing over the stupid details of the appointment. I’m really tempted to just cancel it but I’m not going to do it. I just have this fear that my doctor’s going to think I’m stupid for coming in. I know it’s irrational but it’s how I’m feeling at the moment. I feel like I’m rambling now because I’m so nervous.

[Mcai]

We’re all in the same place, fear is something that I’ve been feeling a lot lately. I’m here for you if you need to talk

[whateverlovely248 in reply to Mcai]

Thank you for sharing that. How have you been dealing with your fear if you don’t mind me asking? I find that it’s becoming such a disruption to my life I just don’t know how to get around it.

[JustMyself]

Fear is something that all of us on here know far to well, I’m sorry that you have to experience it too. I have depression and a anxiety disorder, you are not alone. That first doctors appointment can feel scary as hell, lord knows I cancelled a few myself before my first, but you can feel such a sense of relief after finally going, finally seeking help. Antidepressants sound a lot scarier than they are too, I was hesitant to start mine but it’s been three years now. You will get through this, you are so much stronger than you think.

[EEMO]

To the contrary that's our fear telling us not to get help. FEAR. False events appear real.

[Junella]

You have made a good choice in reaching out to this support group. We have shared you concerns. Fear is especially prominent now. But I suppose knowing that it's "normal" isn't going to make it go away for you.

I can only share what works for me. It has been off and on for many years. In my case I have illness anxiety syndrome and get fearful going to doctors. I started taking paxel before I got my first colonoscopy and got stuck on it!

But there has been some generalized anxiety at times, and now I am a senior and just accept it--the thorn in the flesh. What helps me a lot is most every morning sitting by my window in the sunlight and praying. If it's cloudy, I have a special light. I use the Lord's Prayer as a guide, but add a lot to it til 30 or more minutes have gone by--it's like conversation with a Friend. I try to read positive stories (but watch too much news) and watch nature films. When the weather permits I walk outside or if not, use a treadmill for 30 mins. I keep a journal of my daily activities to keep me on track. A step-counter helps for walking.

I went to a lifestyle physician, and he put me on a vegan diet with a focus on greens, foods like broccoli and cauliflower (I like the riced kind.), beans, the exercise routine, 8 hrs of sleep. (I have trouble with this because I am a night owl.) Social life is very important to get out of yourself. Help someone; there are many lonely people. Now phone calls are important as I don't go anywhere.

I hope this helps. Get informed. Have a routine of deep breathing, some sort of meditation that is positive, and avoid rumination on negative thoughts. Have a pet. I lost my Ragdoll cat three years ago, and that triggered me into a funk for awhile along with other losses.

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Everyone here very caring and goldeb retrievers

[agatham]

Hey I know exactly how you feel! I had depression for a while now and my therapist also suggested antidepressants now. It’s been a week since I started taking them but honestly I was terrified... I didn’t want to admit to myself that I needed them. But you know it’s not our fault that our brain works like this. My advice is if you think it might help go for it. And if you ever need someone to talk I’m here

[VDC1]

Your doctor will not think you’re stupid. That’s good that you’re reaching out. Antidepressants may or may not help, but there are some other things you can do that may have a substantial impact on your mood.

Get some omega 3 supplements and take the recommended dose/number of pills daily. It’s proven to help with depression and if you’re deficient in fatty acids due to your diet, which most are, that plays a role in your mental health.

Also take Epsom salt baths. You’re likely deficient in magnesium, as most are.

Good luck at your appointment.