Just getting stuff off my mind

[Tinkabell49]

So as I lay here wishing I could sleep, it 2am here and my mind is flooded with thoughts. The white noise in my head keeps defining all the reasons for my anxiety and depression, telling me that I have reason to feel how I feel that my reactions are justified.

The anxiety leads to frustration the frustration leads to anger and the anger well I control that most of the time but repressed anger and unresolved issues lead to depression.

The chronic back, hip and fibromyalgia pain continues to increase with little relief or understanding, which all leaves me back through the cycle of living in silence.

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Tb4,

I had a back injury for years so bad I could hardly move beyond the bed. It was Horrible. I was too afraid of surgery since my dad had 2 back surgeries that failed... He had to see a chiropractor every week for his whole life. He never complained even one time. It was due to a teenage major cat I mean car accident.

You just made me remember all these things. I’m super careful about moving anything more than very slowly and carefully...

At least it isn’t painful anymore...

Catman

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