Social Anxiety, Depression and Loneliness (Warning: RANT!!)

[Chocoholic_18_x]

I am a sufferer of severe social anxiety and mild depression, and it feels like I’ll never get out of it. Life is very lonely at the moment as I don’t have any friends and I am almost 18 and never had a relationship yet (by society’s standards, that’s pretty late) and I feel pressure cause I feel like I’m “supposed to” have one by this age. Aside from that, I also struggle very bad making friends as I come across extremely shy and awkward, and always feel like people think I’m boring and have no personality, when really I’m just scared and self conscious. And now, because I’ve suffered with social anxiety for about 4 years now due to bullying at school, I have also started feeling depressed as I’m lonely for so long and have extremely low self esteem. Any time I try to talk to people, they never seem interested. It might sound a bit dramatic, but I’ve also had a few suicidal thoughts. I’ve never attempted it, I’ve only thought of it a few times. But still, it hurts really bad when it feels like no one cares and I feel unworthy of love and happiness. I’m supposed to start work in a few hours, and really don’t want to go in. The other workers get on like a family but I’m extremely shy and don’t open up. It always causes me emotional pain going in, and starting college is going to be the same as I’ve been alone in college for all of last year also. Sitting in the bathroom on my own during lunch breaks, skipping classes... it does cause emotional pain. And since I have dreams of becoming a singer, I have more pressure and anxiety since the biggest part of making it in the music industry is about getting to know people and creating contacts/connections. It does cause me great hurt and pain, but it’s constant battle! I hope one day I’ll get through this and feel happy again, but I don’t want to wait till I’m older to get through this, I would like to be happy as soon as possible. Anyways, that’s my long rant over lol😂 thank you for listening to me it means a lot to me! Take care and stay safe! X

[Hb2003]

First of all welcome second of all we are very supportive people

[Chocoholic_18_x in reply to Hb2003]

Nice to meet you! And thank you x

[Hb2003 in reply to Chocoholic_18_x]

Your welcome

[Hb2003]

I am sorry about what’s happening too

[Chocoholic_18_x in reply to Hb2003]

It’s fine, it’s a working process and I’ve been to therapy also so I am working on fixing it.

[Hb2003 in reply to Chocoholic_18_x]

That’s good

[Elle_Luv]

Hey I was almost exactly in your situation a couple years ago! I went to college at 18 and i was so socially isolated and i was skipping classes and i didn’t make a single friend. I started going to therapy, and after getting on academic suspension i started DBT. Therapy completely turned my life around once I put the work in outside of sessions. So proud of you for getting help! Stick with it! You’ll get out of this and start to get better!

[schone_seele]

Hi! I don’t think you should worry so much about what society defines as normal. Everyone is different me what you decide to do in your life is your normal. Having social anxiety is really hard, I have it to. My therapist encourages me to try and say hello to a new person every two weeks. Sometimes people will start up conversations and it helps with my anxiety because I get to choose the person and environment. I think you are very brave in going to college and wanting to pursue your goal of singing. I’m sure you can succeed and always remember that your anxiety does not define you.

[bonkers65]

I have bad social anxiety too. I hate it.

[Chocoholic_18_x in reply to bonkers65]

Ugh, it sucks honestly. You’re not alone! 🖤

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Ur not ranting

Pleeese see u tube very shy lady on britain has talrnt

Many us shy too

I.used to hang out in the library

Ooops I shared

Guess I must feel.safe huh

No worries aboutvrelatuinships

Quality

Much more important ghan

Quantity

[Freakinout3]

People see Ambition as a threat... Hence bullying and alienation... Musicians and Artists face a common enemy... It's called contempt, and jealousy.... People who are passionate invite the dark forces... Passion, Love, Kindness, Consideration stimulates hatred in people.... Because it mocks their sensibilities.... How dare you, they say in their heads....

[Hb2003 in reply to Freakinout3]

oh no I never thought those traits could bring bad forces 😬

[Freakinout3 in reply to Hb2003]

Either did I.. I thought if I was kind, giving, loving, passionate, creative, and thoughtful everything was gonna be roses...but the truth is you only hurt the one's you love... So if you are loved... It's extremely painful... Pain make you GROW.. and Growth makes you a STAR..

[Hb2003 in reply to Freakinout3]

hmm 🤔

[Hb2003 in reply to Hb2003]

That is true

[Freakinout3 in reply to Hb2003]

I don't know if that's true, but in my delusional state, and clouded brain.... The only truth I know is who the enemy truly is... And I'm not sure if I'm the good guy, or bad guy

[Hb2003 in reply to Freakinout3]

that’s right I thankfully have a good idea of who are my enemies sometimes the brain plays tricks on you