Fear and anxiety affecting work

[RewiringHeadspace]

I’m not sure how to start this because there are a bunch of thoughts running through my head at the same time. I have a meeting with some people I work for in the morning and I’m having difficulty preparing to handle myself for the meeting and upcoming week. I’ve had a long history with anxiety but in the past couple of years my anxiety has manifested in response to fear at work.

I didn’t get too much work done this weekend and decided to try to relax a little and watch some tv show episodes. But I feel like I’m split in two. Half of me is trying to enjoy it and the other half of me can’t because I can’t stop thinking about everything I should have done this weekend (both for work I’m behind on and housework) and everything I’m going to have to face this upcoming week.

I’m so exhausted by all of this that I can’t even be productive. I’m tired by these thoughts, by how I feel and react, making the wrong decision or judgement, and making mistakes. And I’m tired of being tired.

There’s so much more I’m still trying to unpack in my brain and probably didn’t explain myself well here. Maybe one day later I’ll be able to post about my thoughts here a little more organized but was hoping to maybe hear how others deal with fear and anxiety at work. I know people will commonly say take comfort in knowing you did your best but unfortunately that’s not quite my case here. I posted previously about how my fear, anxiety, and forgetfulness have affected my work. Sorry for the long post.

[RobertJordan]

I'm sorry to hear that. I also struggle with anxiety about work.

[crowningglory19]

It is impossible to truly rest when we are thinking of something we should be doing, maybe make that your reward after working on it a bit. Work an hour, then watch a show, then work an hour, do it is bits w a reward between so you feel better about yourself. For this week, maybe work a bit in evening to be ready the next day, you will feel better in the end about yourself. Also, to get rid of the anxiety, take magnesium, and to be focused, take B Complex vitamins, they help a lot. Hang in there, you got this!!