Why do my OWN mental breakdown scare myself

[teen_anxiety]

UGH, it seems every time I have a mental breakdown its no longer the oh go cry yourself to sleep it has become something where I feel like I have lost control of my own self and sometimes wanna hurt myself not die just cut or something and it scares me even but I don't wanna tell anyone they are just gonna call me drama, etc.

[Imgarbage]

You don't need physical pain to feel alive. When I was younger I used the mental anguish the turmoil, the sadness, the heartache just being lost in emotional pain as long as I felt that type of pain I knew I was alive and I used all that as inspiration for drawing and painting use whatever you are going through to inspire a creative outlet in the arts.

[teen_anxiety in reply to Imgarbage]

I am not creative and I would not know how to anyways.

[Imgarbage in reply to teen_anxiety]

You could learn to paint or anything you choose believe me there's alot of bad paintings out there that sell big

[TorieNWyattsMOM]

Try anything that may keep your mind and your body moving or doing something .. skateboarding helps my teenage daughter even though she is not very good at it lol .. gets her outside moving around .. music is always a great tool to calm a choatic mind with trance rave house or electronic style music ... or hard core metal music to jump around, scream and unleash every pent up ounce of madness has left your lungs ... idk screaming helps me more than anything else ... try to find a new activity or hobby to devote yourself, time and energy to .. just keep busy

[teen_anxiety in reply to TorieNWyattsMOM]

I will keep this in mind thx.