Loneliness

[Goodbadugly]

I find I go on the self destruct mode when things get me down, I have been like this for a few years now, I should know better as I'm a carer and I try to give advice when ever I can, I love to be around people I feel I can't function if I'm on my own, I hate to be at home I have to work just for the company and wages 😀 people who know me say I overthink all the time I'm to sensitive and sometimes all over the place, when I have good days I really do and when they are bad.. well say no more

[Hidden]

Self-destruct mode as in moping around feeling sorry for yourself? Yep, I hear that! I do the same. It is so hard to dig ourselves out. Worse yet is knowing that we are the only ones who can pull ourselvesout (never mind the guilty feelings we get for not having the energy to do that). It's a vicious cycle.

[Goodbadugly in reply to Hidden]

57 and I can't believe I'm still doing the same things as I did in my 30, I try to get myself out of these ruts by saying how lucky I am with the things I have and some people would love to live with half the things I have but it just doesn't work, it's like you say the guilt is horrendous I don't like to make other people miserable, my partner of 16yrs is so so positive and sometime I give him hell

[Utred in reply to Hidden]

HI!

I can relate to being self destructive. Then I get desperate and start looking for solutions to my trouble outside myself. Then, like you I have to remind myself to be grateful and look within myself for answers. It is very difficult to maintain a positive perspective, especially when you continue to do the same thing over and over. My favorite inspirational saying is, to do something different you must do must first do something different. I have to say I am slow to act on this.

One thing I have about people I perceive to be happy is they seem to have some form spirituality. I;m not trying to convert anybody here, just an observation from an agnostic/

[Hidden in reply to Utred]

I think this is meant for Goodbadugly, right? I appreciate your thoughts! Mine is that people who I perceive as happy carry themselves better.