Do i choose to go on?

[Tbine]

Hello, it's been awhile since i posted anything. I hope that my words here may help someone who is suffering immensely like i am right now in my life. I find it hard these days to want to go on with my life as it's been. For so long i have struggled because of evil people, vindictive people, angry people. I keep meeting these type of people who I'm forced to figure out what it is they want from me. Or why they act the way they do in front of me? Some are easy to figure out while other's are like playing a difficult game of chess, wondering what's in store for me next. I'm so mentally exhausted i really don't want to play no more. It has been so long without a break, i feel like i just don't have it in me to continue this way another day. I wonder what's this life for? Somehow, so far I've gotten through it all, not alone, but with the only person i have left in my life, my sidekick, my reason for still living this brutal existence,. My wife. My advice to all those suffering immensely is Dig Deeply into your soul to find the will to get up, to try another day. Tears run down my face as i write this, I've been up all night long, just thinking, asking, and trying to make any sense of these cruel people who we've been nothing but nice to, our roomates who tortured our life for at least the last 6 months,. Just to end in being forced to walk away and become homeless once more. It feels like we've come full circle for some reason but left us wondering what's to come next? Will we have the strength to make it through once again? I don't know if we can this time. It comes down to a choice,.. Do we choose to keep playing this screwed up game or do we quit? This is where I'm at this morning. Do i still have the "will" the "want" to continue ?

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I do agree that people are a real piece of work, the way they talk and act.

Please don't waste your valuable life and time trying to figure people out. They truly are not worth it. There is no value in trying to figure out why people act in such a creepy way. You are worth more than this.

You are wondering why they hurt you so much, while they are Enjoying how they hurt you. Who is better, you, or them???

If you feel they do not care about you, you couldn't be more Right!!! Stay strong and stick up for yourself, like I do. They will Respect you for not taking their Beating.

Chris

[Bobbleheadbuddha]

I think you answered your own question. Do you continue? Yes! If not for yourself, for your wife. Think about how she'd feel if you weren't there. Where would she be? My belief is God never puts more on us than we can handle. You will get through this and you will see how strong you truly are. Even though you feel drained, you must find some positive aspect of the situation and continue on my friend.

[Hidden]

The world is full of Narcs that feel they are so worthy and people around them are lacking and they can really do damage and just walk away. My family was like that three women with attitude, even my Father was frightened of them. I remember when my Mother died I was told they were going to destroy me and then I decided to walk away and go no contact.

Remember you are their supply and the only way out from this type of person is be strong and walk away, live your Life. If they still try and interact move on push them a way, they will not like that and will try and destroy your reputation , be brave and move on sometimes it is not worth trying to correct the problem. Eventually if it is with relatives or family you will find people who have swallowed their poisen give those people the heal of your feet walk away you will soon understand and see people who have not believed this possible scandal

I walked away, they found me after ten years, the problems returned and the venom started again, Remember you deserve peace and to enjoy your Life these people are rodents that wish to drag you down. Do not placate them, move on and make your new life

BOB