Time goes by so fast...

[BluuAngel]

Hello there. It is going to be 2021 already and it only seems like yesterday that God took my daddy home. December 18, 2018. March 4, 2009, God took my mommy home. So many years and the pain is still so fresh! My heart breaks everyday. I remember and I hate to. That may sound awful, but it hurts so much to remember. Glimpses of when I was most happy. Time I will never get back. Guilt of, "I should have done this or that more!" I am all grown up but, I don't feel grown up. I still feel like a little girl. That is how I feel on the inside, in my heart of hearts. I have my own little boy, but I still needed my parents! Life is so precious and painful and awful and beautiful and traumatic and mysterious and...I could keep going, but you know what I mean. I am thankful for this site and for my little boy and for my small circle of friends and for my sister and for the time that I did have with my parents. I thank God for all my blessings great and small!! XOXOX

[HelpingElbow]

Hi BluuAngel

You're absolutely right! Even though we have grown up, we are still a little child in our hearts.

Your parents were blessed to have had a daughter like you who still remembers them vividly. Similarly, you're blessed too, as you are reciprocating the same love to your child.

Yes, life is a roller coaster indeed.

Even though you have not come to terms with your loss, it's important to assure yourself that your parents did the best for you and so should you.

You still have family and friends to care for (including us ☺). Please remind yourself you're not alone. You deserve all the love you need and so does your family.

That's why I believe that we must always make a consious effort to become better than our parents when it comes to love, affection and gratitude.

By the looks of it, I could sense that you wanted to write a lot more. But you somehow limited yourself. It's alright...

We are there for you, don't worry.

Take care.

[moxond]

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