I want peace

[Iwillrise92]

I was born in the penitentiary then off to live in foster homes and other family memebers, while taking care of 3 little sister surviving. I turned 18 i reconnected with my mom and its been the worse experience in my life shes tried to basically break me in so many ways mental and physical abuse. All i wanted was a mother and a father and i got neither, I feel like everyone who comes into my life leaves before time and im stuck with the pain. She told us she didnt want us and I know shes heen through alot so how can you love when you never learned how? My father died when he finally got out of prison when i was 23 then died when i was 25. My sister has mental illnesss that was never addressed now she has lied on my kids my husband and made a horrible situation to where i had to leave town. Im tired, im worried im so strong to the world that im breaking and no one is noticing im expected to be strong at all times I have 5 children depending me on me.

[Agora1]

Iwillrise92, my heart breaks for you and the start you got in this world. They say we

can't go back home and maybe it's true. It seems like it caused you even more heart break.

I'm sorry about the loss of your father, the mental state of both your mother and sister.

The thing now is to give yourself a fresh start. You can give your children the love that you were missing in your younger days. The most important thing we can give our children is

love and nourishing. I can only imagine how hard you have tried to be strong but you're

human and need love and support yourself. I am so glad you found this safe site to come to.

We are here for each other 24/7. Welcome to this amazing support forum. xx

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Look after yourself first and then everything will follow - you are first priority

[Operalady]

Oh sweet Jesus you are caring quite a load! Do you have other women in your life you can talk to? You need a therapist you also can talk to. You need all kinds of support!! Please get a social worker or therapist to help you ! I am praying for you now!!! Please get support!!

[Operalady]

Hello how are you doing?

[Operalady]

Hello there ! How are you?