How do I strengthen my self worth?

[H0tcheet0luvR]

I don't want to depend on outside validation to feel worthy... but that is a pattern I have. I let negative experiences and my shortcomings overcome my thoughts and I spiral into ruminations. This gets in the way of achieving my goals and feeling secure in intimate relationships.

Background: I was diagnosed with complex-PTSD in 2015 and have been struggling with self worth since early adolescence. I am 26 yrs old, unemployed but applying to higher education. I am procrastinating on my application that is due in 2 weeks, because I am avoiding feelings of vulnerability, rejection and failure.

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Hi🙋‍♀️ and welcome.

First thing's first: how the heck did you come up with your username? (Kidding; you're fine)

Secondly, I have struggled with self-worth as well and am always seeking outside validation. It's exhausting to do this! I hate second-guessing almost every action I take or thought I have never knowing if it's the right one and therefore asking outsiders to validate me. I'll be interested to hear what others have to say on the topic. I have actually been looking for a book on how to increase self-worth.

[FearIsALiar]

Avoidance is the worst thing you can do to yourself. It just causes more anxiety in the long run.. I Learned the hard way. What’s the worst that could happen if you got rejected??