Behind the wheel

[gilded_masquerade]

I was going to add this onto the previous post but I felt it would’ve been too confusing or whatever.

My boyfriends cousin died in a car accident a few weeks ago, the funeral was on the 2nd. My boyfriend has been understandably taking it hard and I’ve been trying my best to support him however I can but I haven’t lost anyone close to me *knocks on wood* so I don’t exactly know what to do sometimes.

My boyfriend and I were heading to the store a couple blocks away so we got in his car, and at the end of my street I started feeling nervous. I told him I’d honestly rather just walk but we were basically at the store by that point.

When we left the store I stopped beside the car and realized I was nervous about being in the car because of what happened to his cousin. I felt SO guilty and terrible for saying it because I felt like I was somehow making it about me when I wasn’t but my boyfriend said it made sense because in a way I was dealing with it through him.

So I’ve been avoiding cars as of late which I know when you’re scared of something you have to push through it as I’ve done in the past.

So my question is; how can I introduce baby steps into being okay with being in a car again? I find it silly that I’m afraid of them now when I practically spent most of the summer in one but I want to know how to gradually get comfortable with being in one again.

I’ll also add it’s not my boyfriends driving I’m worried about it’s other people’s (because I don’t know them or how they drive).

Thanks!