My new life.....that sucks

[natparks7]

I am 25 years old and just want to get this out there. This is my first time writing ever about what I’m going through. I have never known that I suffered from anxiety and depression. Up until this point in my life I always bounced back from things I coped in various ways and it was never an issue. I graduated from a really good university and was always proud of that. College was tough but I dealt with it. Then I went to start a job and my life changed. I totally reinvented myself and I loved it. I was fun outgoing found tons of friends through work and just felt like my life was on a high road. Little did I know that everything would come crashing down. This year I moved back home in a suburb with my fam during the pandemic. My mom suffers from debilitating depression that has more or less taken her life (she hasn’t left the house in 3 years). Being at home and then suddenly getting an overload of stress at work I realized that I was experiencing symptoms. I was needing a break from everything so I stopped working for a month thinking it would get better but I still feel bad. It took me many weeks into that break to even accept it. I know have a online therapist and idk how much help it will be since I’m so resistant to doing the homework. I have to start work again next week and am terrified honestly. I just don’t feel like anyone knows what’s going on. I can’t sleep which is the worst part of it all.

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Hello👋 and welcome. Lack of sleep magnifies everything, making it so much worse. Do you have an idea as to why you can't sleep?

[Healing-today]

Hi, I am 31 and your words sound like my words...as far as being able to bounce back during stress in the past and now the depression feels overwhelming. I too had this with anxiety. I started therapy in March and it’s not until now that I’m feeling better, relief. I forced myself to focus on one small success each day and thank myself. Some days it was, “I cried only twice” or “I drank water “. Sounds silly but it helps to challenge the depressive side. I am rambling, hope it makes some sense.