I honestly have never felt so empty and lost in my life. I am stuck in a place where I feel like I am giving out everything I have and more and gaining nothing but stress and disappointment. I have never been so unhappy the way I am now. The way my life is now. The way my relationship is going. My relationship with God, my family, my once existing friends whom I would always talk to and now have no communication with. I keep pushing for better days, for healthier and sane moments but they are not coming. I’m pushing but in all honesty I think I’m just being pulled into a swamp of depression. I have no energy to keep going, I have no motivation to keep the little positivity I have going. I just want to be saved.