Very scaree

[molli88]

My head hurts so bad and it feels like its spinning. im scared im going to have a stroke. i am only 17 but im so petrified that im going to have one because my headache is so bad. also my mom tells me that it coukd be my boyfriend and that we are in a toxic relationship and my body is telling me that its not okay

[Hidden]

Hi molli. I'm sorry it's scary for you right now. In addition to your mom, have you talked to your doctor about this (especially since you're scared)?

Since stress can manifest itself physically, there might also be some truth to what your mother is saying. What do you think?

[molli88 in reply to Hidden]

yes i have talked to doctors they just tell me i need a counselor. i got into this coming week so im glad for that. and yes i feel like my boyfriend coukd be a possibility of my stress

[Hidden]

Hi Molli88,

I find when I get into a headspace where everything feels like it's spinning, I need to just sit for few minutes to catch my breath. Just a few minutes to breath helps to slow things down a bit.

Do you have a mental health professional or doctor that you can set up an appointment with to talk through your symptoms? They're going to be the best ones to help diagnose what could/couldn't be happening. Self-diagnosis is dangerous and could do more harm than good.

It's possible your mom is on to something. If you care to share more what's going on with your boyfriend, I'm happy to listen. I've been through many, many, many relationships over the past 20 years that didn't go well and were considered "toxic." Just recently out of one. In hindsight, I'm realizing the body was telling me something that the relationship wasn't a good one or the right one. I had anxiety attacks. I was always in this heightened sense of anxiousness. Couldn't sleep well. Eating terribly. Not taking care of my needs. Always tense. It just wasn't great. I've been saying to myself the past few days that I'm calmer, less anxious, less heightened fear since the relationship ended. Our body has a way of telling us what's really going on. We have to listen to it, to hear what it's trying to tell us. It's like food poisoning. You eat something not great, and your body responds to it. The same goes with relationships.

Here for you if you want to share further.

[molli88 in reply to Hidden]

my boyfriend and i had a break back in may/june and i was “free” almost. now we are back together and i feel like all my worries are placed on my shoulders again. i feel like if i do something wrong its just going to worsen our relationship. i guess you could say im definitely walking on egg shells. he has changed from his past self but there is still sometimes were he is just an asshole. its a very long story. and it definitely could be a possibility my body is telling me to get out of this relationship

[Hidden in reply to molli88]

I can relate. Relationships that are on and off definitely take their toll because you never know how long it's going to last. Having the feeling that if you do something wrong is going to worsen the relationship is definitely not a place to be in when you're in a relationship. Not having the security that your partner is going to stick with you, is a terrible feeling. Do you communicate those fears with your boyfriend? Are you able to sit and talk through what you're feeling? That might be the best place to start. I've come to learn that if you can't start there, that's a pretty good indication on the status of the relationship. And you either need to work harder together to make it work (if that's what you both want) or walk away. Walking away is never easy and takes time to get yourself in a better place, but no relationship is worth making yourself unhealthy just to stay in it. Just know that walking away is always an option.

[Hidden]

From your last posts, you have high blood pressure, health anxiety (not diagnosed), added stress because of issues with boyfriend. If your not eating and hydrating well, this might compound things as well. Sleeping, eating, etc okay?

Are you trying to treat the headache, lower your anxiety, perhaps looking to see a doctor for this or get into treatment such as therapy?

I hate headaches, headaches that linger or don’t go away really need a doctors care especially since you have an underlying medical condition. 🌺💜

[molli88 in reply to Hidden]

when i take ibuprofen it does help my headaches and when i take my anxiety medication it helps has well. it lessens the pain and when i tend to not think about something being wrong with me. my head does nkt hurt. so thats why i believe it is health anxiety or im just being a hypochondriac?

[Hidden in reply to molli88]

Well I don’t like the word hypochondriac, it’s a negative label, but what you do have (this must be diagnosed by a professional), high anxiety tendencies to worry about something happening to you and your health.

If you are in a toxic relationship, this is very unhealthy to continue with, I hope you’ll work to not let a relationship of this caliber cause you emotional and mental harm. Talk to someone you trust about this. Wishing you the best. 🌺💜🌺💜