Self harm

[gigimich]

Hi everyone. I’m really struggling currently. Last night I went to a new therapist & everything seemed okay, I went for a run after & seemed fairly happy then all of a sudden at night I started having thoughts of self harm. I couldn’t stop crying. And I’m still kind of emotional though I don’t have the same urge to self harm the thoughts are still in my head. I feel crazy. I feel stupid. I have such a good life so I don’t understand why I’m having so much sadness surrounding my soul

[Hidden]

Hi, I know it's really difficult to deal with things that you are dealing. I understand, today I was also having a amazing day, every thing was fine but all of a sudden I am also feeling terrible. Anxious, depressed, confused. But I am sure it will go away. And if you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here for you.

[Starrlight]

You are not crazy or stupid. Please be kind to yourself. I know it’s not always easy. Like for me, when I feel depressed or really scared I feel like I suck and it’s hard to be compassionate toward self only toward other people. But I’m working on that. My therapist gave me homework to notice when I’m thinking bad of myself. I grab onto an elephant stone and tell myself I am a strong woman and a beautiful soul.

I understand it must be so hard to go from feeling good to really suffering. I wish we understood where this is coming from... maybe in our subconscious mind we are remembering a terrible event or lie.

I hope you can get through today without cutting. How are you doing now?

[gigimich in reply to Starrlight]

Hi thank you for your sweet message. I got on a call with my therapist and I’m feeling a little better. I’ve decided I am going to try to stay off my phone & occupy my time on things that are going to keep my mind busy. Thank you again for your beautiful message 🖤

[Starrlight]

P.s. After every difficulty comes ease.

[Hidden]

I’m sorry you’re feeling bad. Go easy on yourself! Sudden changes like that in how you are feeling could be caused by exhaustion, either emotional or physical. Try not to let the feelings get to you... that sounds strange, but sometimes I find myself I just have to ride it out, like a bad storm, and wait for peaceful waters to return.

If you ever have thoughts of harm please try to distract yourself, reach out on here for someone to talk to, find an activity, just something to get your mind off it. You are a unique and precious person and you don’t deserve to be hurt. You deserve the chance to heal. Take care!

[Pel3749]

Hi gigimich, you are perfectly safe. Your thoughts will change to happiness again. Keep in close touch with your therapist for they are the experts. My therapist is very kind and helpful. Talk with your friends and family For they love you and will help you. You can always go on this forum if you want to talk. God Bless you.

[Emsthemes]

Hi! If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here!