Desperate

[NiBa5]

Morning is hell. I feel so scared. My on recovery brain doesn’t work in the morning particularly. I’m tired to live by fighting..... My doc just tells me to be patient . How long???? It’s been more than 2 years.

[HeartLove2]

Hi ya. Sounds like you're describing fight or flight anxiety. Yep, very exhausting to experience this regularly. Please consider changing your morning routine to add music, for instance. Plan three minutes of meditation with breathing techniques and it's guaranteed to change your physiological response. If you can, lay on the floor with your hips against the wall and your legs extended vertically up the wall. A few minutes in this position changes the blood flow and when it's combined with breathing slowly, you will have a calming response.

Can you pinpoint what is triggering you to feel scared? Thank you for telling us. It's important to tell somebody!

[NiBa5 in reply to HeartLove2]

Thank you for reaching out. It helped me to feel I’m not alone. I started doing breathing slowly. My brain is functioning better but it hasn’t come back to normal.

[HeartLove2 in reply to NiBa5]

Keep telling yourself that what you're feeling is TEMPORARY. Find a mirror to say it out loud with eye contact to yourself, if possible. A suggestion: I used to listen to meditation regularly so I memorizye part of it as a mantra. Something like, "I know that there are times when I feel anxious, angry, or upset. Those times will come and go. Right now, I am calm, peaceful, and well." The phrase '...calm, peaceful, & well...' is now a soothing technique for me. It's important to validate what you're feeling. Then move away; mentally shift into a safe mental space and physical space. In my case, there have been times when I feel upset / anxious and the ONLY place I can calm down is being near my sister, for example. KEEP EXPERIMENTING so you can learn how to calm your nervous system. Creating new experiences to foster a calming sensation is important so you can use it when in crisis (like now).

Is there a time-based constraint that is working to cause anxiety? The need to catch a bus, or turn in a paper, or finish work by a deadline?

[NiBa5 in reply to HeartLove2]

Thank you so much again. I did “slow breathing” then fell in asleep for s while. It helped me.

I’ve been off from work with my PAWS (post acute withdrawal symptoms) from a long time use of antidepressant then the subsequent severe depression I’ve ever had in my life. I’ve been fighting for recovery since I miss my work so much.

Again I truly appreciate you to be with me. It helped me

Hugs

[Hidden]

So sorry you’re still suffering. I’m glad you are talking with your doctor about it.

I have my thoughts on your situation, we’ve discussed this a bit in the past, but it won’t cure what you are feeling and the struggles you have. Just know you are supported here, hope you feel a little relief even if just for a few moments to help you get through your day better.

Hang in there. 🌺💜

[NiBa5 in reply to Hidden]

Thank for your support again. I assume I’m better but not ok at all yet. I cannot perceive my improvement. I’m still going through a weird dark stage of recovery. Brain recovery is so weird and slow. My doc who has been my colleague just tells me to be patient .... it doesn’t help me much.

I hope you’re doing ok. Again thank you. Hugs