update

[DealingWithBPD2]

I haven’t been to the doc yet but I’ve been forcing myself to be outside and not isolate myself. I’ve gone to a job interview and done some nice things for myself. I’m still sad most of the day and cry a lot but I’m trying to be better. I’m trying to be okay. I don’t wanna be sad like this all the time but it feels like I’m crumbling if I’m not busy and I’m just sitting with my thoughts. Does anyone else keep themselves busy to avoid the sad?

[Iammesues]

Yes. I work all day. But at night tears flow. Unstoppable. Overwhelming sadness. A pathetic life I live

[DealingWithBPD2 in reply to Iammesues]

I find myself crying in the morning moreso than night but yeah. I self medicate most of the day and keep myself busy or distracted, I’m sorry you feel like this too

[Sunnflower33]

I am the same way. Especially with Covid it’s been extra difficult to stay busy and find reasons to leave the house. But I still cry everyday and I still have messy sadness and frustration.

[DealingWithBPD2 in reply to Sunnflower33]

Covid really screwed things up for me. I was on a high and found the perfect working/school balance with the perks of working where I liked. I’ve been jobless since March and it sucks man. Staying inside all day :/ I’m sorry you feel like this too